Saturday, June 23, 2007
once is REALLY enough.while, its been quite a while since i last blogged (duh, its so apparent) hAHA.
i have not been good.
-i have a terrible pimples breakout
-i have to study like FCUK but in the end, i cant even do some simple questions for my mid years (applies to physics IN PARTICULAR)
-i have to let go of my past
-i still have another week of exams to go
-AND I HATE MY CURRENT LIFE NOW.
yeah, mugging mugging mugging... i am feeling so miserable, so depressed right now. its like, i just realised that for all my life, i have been studying and did nothing that i truly enjoyed. yes, "get a life," some of you might say. but isnt it appropriate for me to take a back seat now?
HELLO?! "A" LEVELS IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER!
i just cant imagine how time flies. and i am totally unprepared for it. i do seriously want to get my A's. but looking at my current status now, i am so so afraid that i cant even manage a single A.
everything just seem so hard and distant to me, out of the blue.
i have been studying hard- but studying smart is all another thing, which is questionable to me.
inspite of taking some time off ploughing through physics notes, i still cant even make sense out of a single question.and at that point of time, i had a fcuking mental block too. its screwed. this time, ITS FOR REAL.
I FAILED MISERABLY. (to the extent whereby i think i will get single digit)
how sad? you tell me?
not only this. i did not do well in other papers too. =((
but thinking back, its not that bad anyway- cos i did studied and i've tried my best. i am answerable for my results at least.
to divert a little attention away from this topic for now, i shall talk about the good things that have been good for me.
while, i got to know more friends, like... xinru (the ultimate clubber + flinger + uber rich + popular + good looking + ....) ? HAHAH! yeah, everyones been talking about how bad or rather, how smug he seem to be. but after meeting him and chatted with him on two different occasion, he's not a BAD person after all. he is just not VERY good in words though. and and.... yeah, another person is michelle- not very clear about her. but shes the volleyball captain from ajc. yeah, she's quite hot! and i think she's got a thang for xr? hahaha! we chatted too. shes quite a SOMEBODY person. interesting. we exchanged contacts anyway.
oh well, i got to know these two person via ANLI, my dear acjc friend. =) okay, she's just came back from bintan with xinru (both went for different purposes- one for OCIP, another for vacation) and we met up yesterday. we had a helluva time chatting about their trip and some other private stuffs which anli simply cant take it (scandals). our friendship blossomed. HAHAHAHAH! well................... i appreciate that you took the trouble to buy some gift for me- the ambercrombie polo tee- DONT ASK ME TO SELL IT ON E-BAY! uhm.. an LV wallet would be nice if you happen to go there for your next trip again alright? HAHAH!
and apart from this, i met up with laypeng. shes damn funny. shall not elaborate or esle this post wont end. HAHA. anyway, she gave me really good advice and it seriously brought some sense unto me. hAHA! next friday shall be the day alright?
i missed the AH-SIAOs! (aka laypeng and kaisoon) okayyy.. i cant wait for friday to come.
and fireworks next saturday!!! woohoo.
ugghh, before i can really enjoy these things, i promise myself that i shall really work productively for my last few papers and make it worth it- cos you know, after the physics paper, i was totally aghast and appalled at the way i have been doing things. its a HUMBLING EXPERIENCE for me.
alright, its a long post. hoped you enjoyed.
in the meantime, to those who are having their exams now- study hard and all the best for your exams! dont worry,you are never alone...
for all these; i learnt.
posted by Pepsi on 7:16 PM
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