Friday, October 03, 2008
i've been feeling down recently- even to the extent of getting depression i think.

it's kinda weird. i will get temperamental for every small things that are not going my way, and its so unbecoming of me.

the scary thing is, i know the reason behind my mood swings. and i have no intentions of changing it. how terrible can that be?

many people have noticed the sudden change in me and they asked me what actually caused this change. basically, i just cannot accept the fact that i keep losing out to others. to put it simply, i want to be the best in everything- no losing out.

yes, elitist mindset you say. but isnt that how society really works? if you are not up to mark, you are OUT of the race. (or rather, out of the clique)

com'on, lets face it.
no fantastic results- nevermind
not that rich- still okay
no looks- ...
no charisma- ...
socially inept- worse, and the list goes on.

so what to do? how can i be rich? how to be successful in all aspects of life??

yea, these whole load of "HOW" and "WHY" questions kept bothering me all these while and i am very disturbed.

i know all these worries are unneccessay but you dont know how big an aspiration i have.

VERY BIG INDEED.

while.. its for you to know and for me to figure out the resolutions to my problem.

i believe that one fine day, probably soon, i will have all the answers to my questions and everything will fall in place naturally.

give me some time.

posted by Pepsi on 10:10 PM
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