Monday, November 13, 2006
and i vowed not to be that way. i guess sometimes, no matter how hard i try to swim against the current of doubt, i get swept back in it.......emo songs always brings back memories for me. after listening to "irreplacable" by beyonce, "what a wonderful world" by louis armstrong, "bad day" and "jimmy gets high" by daniel powter..................... i became reflective.
and im feeling .. a certain je ne sais quoi. I feel literally DROWNED in work, because I'm not caught up with certain tracks yet and I have homework and I still need to REVISE the older topics. But yet I really don't feel like doing anything now, except lie on my bed and daydream.
Is 11 months too short a period to be feeling such nostalgia? I can't help it though. I remember those mugging sessions, the shopping sprees, the climbing sessions-one we serendipitously landed ourselves into; one we fortunately scraped through twice and got ourselves freed from school activities. I remember all the heated discussions on a certain someone, all the bitchings, all the focused practices on tys, all the adrenaline (now epinephrine - adrenaline is just not medical enough) flowing as we scraped promos.
And I also remember the sec 4 chalet, we ourselves were heading towards the beach to catch the sunrise; and we had to pass though a very very dark and eerie and deserted part of the route to the beach as a short cut. the girls were probably feeling terrified that we were going to bring them to some forsaken place to rape and murder and plunder them. hAHA! i think i could almost smell their relief ( and possible surprise) when we emerged into some lampposts and the sea. we intended to play some games there as it was to keep ourselves warm from the chilly winds or mingle around reminiscing how we got through the ordeal and survived under the terrible maths lessons for two years. we compiled to the latter.
I also remember.. someone. I think it was mentioned to X, but he probably forgot. Hmmm.
While I would like to continue waxing nostalgic at some of my favourite holiday memories.. I should stop. Although it's hard to forget those good old memories that you had, the saying that goes "lets keep in touch even if we are on different ways..", the ones that once left some traces at some point of our lives... all these, is whole lot of histories.
i never expected myself to find myself teetering on the precipice of the balance between misery and happiness. Ok, mis-description there, since with my current life i am just plain Happy. but with every Happiness-inundated life comes tinted edges of worry, doubt and forlorn crap, which I can only describe as Happy Misery. Misery that is constantly present, that always knaws a little at your chordae tendinae; although youre feeling the most carefree and joyful some part of you knows and itches and craves and knows and wrenches and cries and feels helpless and totallywtf.
i sound so angsty and emo - not at all how i am most of the time. im mr sunshine, mr random. okay, guess what - all that is a freaking farce, a hideous oversight of everyone. ya ? so get it straight, im manic, im scared, and im one big fat cross.
irreplacable.
posted by Pepsi on 8:20 PM
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Sunday, November 12, 2006
oh man.
today was a nice, sunny sunday morning to start with- with the lush greenery, pals of all pals meeting together, and the SINGAPORE-JOHOR 2ND LINK BRIDGE RUN!
sad to say, out of the 3 of us- zhisheng,alvin and me- i ran the last amongst them. but still, i clocked 49 mins for 10 freaking km and emerged the top 50 for my category, BOYS.
and during the course of the run, it have me in positions where my limbs - crazy, lazy, weak, but they're mine and i love them no matter what - are at stake. nearly got into a cramp upon the finishing line and i got a terrible stomachache after that.hAHA; not to mention, zhisheng got that too!
headed to IMM for a very tiring lunch considering the fact that we had to climb over that barrier of sort in the middle of the road. GRUELLING.
alvin had 2 rounds for lunch. what a stomach he has! =D
went home and slept for 4 hours, but still, quite drowsy though.
anyway, the medal for the run; i am glad enough.
posted by Pepsi on 7:17 PM
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