Saturday, July 08, 2006
You can enslave me for $390,000. Or you may think I am not worth a cent. I am essentially the same person and my worth is determined by your valuation.I am otherwise ordinary.
It hurts to be given special treatment, to the extent that you live in a controlled environment. We went for cooking lessons, and the instructors worry we will cut ourselves. We went to school, and was arranged to meet with nearly every single important soul in the school. It is alright not to know those who are important. They can communicate their ideas in thick and wordy reports which would get up to the powers that be. It is the atmosphere that matters, created by the numerous small voices each with a story to tell. It is far more important to reach out to them and understand their ideas and mentalities. The only way to really know and experience, is to mix with the general populace.
For others on scholarships, they may enjoy being treated differently, like Martian specimens to be admired and marvelled at a distance. For me, it only serves to make those who have-it more demanding as special treatment becomes the norm. We want to become leaders to serve the people, not to be put on a throne encased in a bell-jar. All will be manufactured. Even happiness will be artificial.I may appear less than adequate to you, mannerisms, speech, family backgrounds etc. You may even think it is fine to make demands of me, as you may do to others. Sometimes I even feel relatively incapable and thus obliged to serve others above in the hierachy. I am no competition.
Let me be an ordinary soul who just tries his best. People who love ivory towers and bell jars can keep them to themselves.
To real friends: tell me in tagboard if you think there's anything you don't like about me. seriously, anything. we will still be friends after that. =)
posted by Pepsi on 10:24 PM
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Thursday, July 06, 2006
empty and emptied.congrats to me.
posted by Pepsi on 5:10 PM
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Wednesday, July 05, 2006
i don't want to imagine anymore - or else life just turns out so much more beautiful than it really is now. i'm deluging myself with scores of melancholy songs - they're in my head, my heart, my ears, my stodgy fries. i think i've had enough - i don't want to keep this open anymore. so, i think i'll say goodbye to you, you, you, all of you - i pluck a daffodil, blow the whisps off and wish you all well.EH- but wait a minute. should i close it down?
posted by Pepsi on 7:04 PM
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Tuesday, July 04, 2006
life's prolly never been as fucked up as it is now- its been a pretty long time since i had to go through studd like this. such as getting back my results on thurs!. i could have said alot of things, but i choose not to in the end. i need a time-out. perhaps meeting up with my bestie janice can probably brighten up my day!there's a whole blind date thing going on with everybody, even with total guy/girl imbalance.
soccer today? soccer tomorrow? i dunno.
i so happen to chance upon this.. and yeah-
posted by Pepsi on 8:37 PM
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Monday, July 03, 2006
realise im very repetitive. my mind has a tendency to get stuck in ruts, and go round and round and think the same things. maybe i run out of things to think.my posts seem to alternate between happy and sad, except this one might be a bit miserable too. how strange! i would say i felt far more happy than sad nowadays, but this blog doesn't seem to reflect that... so am i happy, or sad? happy? sad?
red pill? blue pill? red pill? blue pill? white pill? black pill? white pill? black pill? PANADOL PERHAPS.
eh. lets be cheerful. apart from that, the main things in my life are in place; in fact probably better than i could have expected given the circumstances, etc. the rest will pass.
this boy wants to run with you.
posted by Pepsi on 5:54 PM
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Sunday, July 02, 2006
i am back from milk run. mehmehmehmeh. eh, no. should be moomoomoomoo.
mr bored has now something to say about the grading system. with some aid from xxx the pro.
A - assholic results
B - brain block (almost there)
C - completely astounding
D - distinction
E - excellent
O - omfg zai!
F - fantastic
LOL. A and B were ideas donated by xxx. since he has alot of experience with As and Bs, its natural that he come up with terms for them. i propose we should have a higher grade than A, not A* but N.
N for no kick!
thats all for today. i think all my papers are going to be C for completely astounding but on the contrary, i think i did B for most parts of the paper and i will get A for atrocious. woohoo.
understand? uh- thats just utter rubbish. i will definitely get a FANTASTIC for F-hysics.
i cant run as well. like duh.
posted by Pepsi on 8:36 PM
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