Saturday, May 06, 2006
I'm giving my life a kick in the butt.i've always been moving but the last month or so i've just been wandering, drifting around. The last few days were spent just slipping further down the spiral.i hope today would be an exception. No more attempting to get myself pissed drunk.just gotta deal with my inner demons once and for all.at some point in my life i will take psych. how people think.i'd like to understand more. life as it is...is teaching me alot. oh well. one day i will find closure for myself, and then maybe i can stop being the worthless shit i am now. caught between who i am, and who i wanna be...thats what i am now. God has a plan for everyone....whats mine?
why can i solve people's problems, but not my own?
i am soo inspired by the SCHOLARSHIP PROGRAMMES! UNIVERSITY OF PENNSYLVANIA- HERE I COME!!!
posted by Pepsi on 9:01 PM
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Wednesday, May 03, 2006
a few hours left! only few mere hours left before prison and jail! oh what terrible fate awaits me! oh what misery waits to devour me in her fangs of servitude! oh pity me!how i wish that hols will come soon after chem test. then, i will have a day (opps. its a month!!) of liberty. how that will seem a drop of cool water in the midst of the raging heat of a merciless desert!
on another note, this time next week will probably bring news of my results 9whatever subjects u named)--another cause for concern. how will i deal with the good/bad news? i think i'd better look around for a nice little corner for me to cry in--maybe in the toilet or the corridor. or better yet, i should bring a mask with me, a mask that never ceases to smile. i should also practise my replies to people's questions, especially if they didn't do so well or did so wonderfully that they instantly become public enemy no.1!
i am so freaking worried now. oh gosh. i'd better compose myself and start my revision soon!!!
on another note again, i went back to meet up with my long lost friends back then in innova and they're still as chirpy as before. haha. great!
-missing my brownie and my white chocolate dream-
posted by Pepsi on 6:47 PM
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Tuesday, May 02, 2006
Pleh. i kept sneezing. am i down with a cold?!! has the rain conquered me??!?! I AM LOST! hahaseriously though, i've been sneezing non-stop. it's getting rather irritating not just because i have to keep reaching for tissue papers, but preparation for sneezing requires you to sort of sit up and raise your head so you can whoosh your head down for DRAMATIC effect as your sneeze produces a downward movement of the head. YES, it is that gross and violent, or maybe i'm just being melodramatic? the point is that this particular action is very very tiring. and i am sick of it. NOSE! I AM GOING TO REBEL! I AM GOING TO CHOP U OFF FROM MY FACE! hahaahaha- my head is killing me. it keeps hurting like $%^&*()(*&^%$#%^&* for god-knows-what- $#%^&*()+_)(*&^ -reason and I AM CLEARLY A REPOSITORY OF ACHES AND PAINS! i am dying soon... someone pls SAVE ME!!!
i'm clearly on the crack. pphhhhffffftttt.. hAHA.
posted by Pepsi on 8:46 PM
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Monday, May 01, 2006
its sad to learn that the long labour day weekend is coming to an end. it is only 12 plus and i am feeling soo blu-ish now. perhaps its that of the post-monday-blues? duuhhh.got this premonition that i will fail my napfa test tmr. again, another "duuhhhh". oh gosh, the "duh" syndrome is coming back- i'd better change for the better.
-random rants-
forget it if u dont understand this post. hAHA.
posted by Pepsi on 12:17 PM
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