Anything that moves

Saturday, April 15, 2006

just found angelas blog. oh, so ive gotten tagged by her.

if you have been tagged, you are to come up with seven qualities of your perfect lover. do specify the gender. then, list down and tag another seven bloggers on their pages. if you've been tagged, you need not do this again. let's start.

gender: female

[1] must have the "english" accent.
[2] be abit bitchy and slutty.
[3] big eyes, pouty lips and slender legs.
[4] knows how to doll up.
[5] be very flexible.
[6] able to get along well with my group of friends.
[7] chocolatey.
(above mentioned are abit, uhm, random.) hAHA

here are the seven people i've tagged:
[1] elizabeth
[2] vivian
[3] yinghua
[4] khairul
[5] hweeyim
[6] marvin
[7] jennifer

alright- i got to go for easter encounter now. hope it turns out well.

posted by Pepsi on 12:56 PM
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Friday, April 14, 2006

Tomorrow. Another day. Another challenge.

Yesterday was pretty fun. Although, I wasn't the way I wanted to be. haha. I know how strange it sounds but that’s the truth. In fact, I haven't been the way I want to be lately. been to temasek junior college for mardi gras. and i just happen to find out that all students there are bright! six pointers, seven pointers. omg- take for example, amelia, the girl whom anli introduced me to. ahhhhh! they're all so fluent and confident, they are everything i isn't.

I don't know why I do this but I don't feel quite as happy as I should be when I see my friends. It's not that I am sad or angry or frustrated when I see the others. I still make the effort to be as chirpy as I can be. But it gets tiring towards the end of the day. So I would appear grumpy or annoyed.

Sorry to everyone if I seemed inattentive throughout the day.

And for my class 06s15, it isn't that I keep wanting to ignore you guys. I just don't know what to say sometimes.

I promised myself I would try to quit saying "sorry but…" because that is not saying sorry. That is making it sound as though you are saying sorry but you really are not. haha. The illusion of repentance.

All my thoughts are in a jumble. Nothing seems coherent. Everything seems to be all over the place.

I am supposed to be happy that I got through the debate competition I thought I failed. I am supposed to be excited over the fact that I got a place in pioneer junior college I want to study in. There are so many things I am supposed to feel but somehow I seem to be experiencing some kind of system stall.

There is nothing that is going wrong (ok nothing major anyway). But a part of me feels as though there is nothing that is going right either. Everything is just in motion and I am lost in the moment of it all. And I don't understand any of it.

I find it harder and harder to wake up in the morning nowadays. I would rather stay in my dreams than wake up to face a world that doesnt seem to stir any passion in me. But that isnt the way. It isnt how life should be lived. That’s escapism.

I told myself that I should be happy because I can be. That is one thing that no one can take away from me. They can try to make my day horrible. They can try to make me cry, make me angry, make me feel horrible. But they cannot stop me from feeling happy if I want to.

Then why does it feel so hard to smile?

stupid bernard http://www.jesus-in-action.blogspot.com ask me to for easter encounter with him. i asked him to call thungliang up first, and if tL goes, i will go. (thinking to myself that tL is very likely not to go). and it so happen that tL is going! oh, what the. haha- being the man-of-words, or so, bernard called me as, i agreed to go. we shall see how it goes tomorrow. hmmm...

posted by Pepsi on 9:03 PM
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006

oh things were gonna happen naturally.

After full blown existentialist/whiney sulks 3 days ago, I'm back! And much happier :) well, my life is falling into pieces. nothing good has happened so far, and everything which seemed like a light at the end of the tunnel turns out to be nothing. alright alright, paradox here but! happier in my social life but not academic-wise.

currently, my studies are in a complete mess, i am unable to initiate what i want, i wasnt selected to be part of something and i hope i wont lose to a dumb promise that whoever passes will slap the latter at the last minute.. sometimes, it just makes me wonder why i am deprived of these small packets of happiness in life.

when was the last time something good happened to me? i really cant remember. in this hectic pace of life, when was the last time anybody actually lay on a grassfield thinking about what happened and what they were grateful for.

well, i just hope things turn out better as time goes by.. in academic aspect pls.....

i am very optimistic that i will flop my chem test today. the end of everything is stirring its way up again, DUH.

posted by Pepsi on 8:35 PM
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