Friday, March 31, 2006
today was AMAZING. met innovians/ex-inovian for lunch at causeway before we left for home. and i sort-of degenerated into a second/third/fourth childhood, once i saw them. heh khairyn tried to resist the "irritation" i gave her but failed to do so and lisda was laughing like a mad-cow. today was a very good day for me, and coming on the heels of a series of good days, i think it was even more special because i was with my family, my friends and having Fun, something that seems unimaginable to people. we're noisy and boisterous and go into hysterics when we're mad, but then it blows out in two minutes flat, and we're perfectly jolly and chatty by the third minute. took a walk at causeway and wandered into "prety in TOK.YO" haha- no lahh, print club to get some of their excellent shots. it is Excellent i tell you- our irresistable faces. HELL COOL!
there was a ton of energy from our table, and from start to finish it was magical. i actually slid down in my chair in happiness when they started ranting. vocaluptuous opened for them, and they were fantastic too, really got us into the mood for the remainder of the lunch hour (: anyone wants to take a good look at our pictures. you're welcome to ask me for it- trust me, it's Good Stuff. they were just fabulousness compressed into two hours.
no butterflies, tadpoles, or vipers inhabiting my stomach- for the first time, i went to pjc without harboring any fear. yay! i love the people around me.
so if you dislike me, oh whatever- GO get a life alright? u got it? no? NOPE? oh, i am not repeating it for the second time because it hurts my teeth for the first.(eyes rolled)
i am going to make it to university of pennsylvania. you just foget it okay? conservation of energy, scream for innova tmr at padang! GO!!!
posted by Pepsi on 8:27 PM
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Thursday, March 30, 2006
the strange world.i simply just cant push all the blame to the world when it was my fault initially. this is being very very very unfair to the world. after browsing through my friends blogs, chatted with them in msn and whatsoever, most of them are going on well- but why? why cant i simply get out of the old me and go with the flow? i guess that i am too stubborn to change for the better. -SCREAMS-
Such as, my friends are acting all serious with me. Both fierce and serious. I really don’t like it. Because it makes things harder than they already are. Anyway, I’ll deal. After a good night’s sleep.
you, one of the things i dislike.
posted by Pepsi on 9:09 PM
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Wednesday, March 29, 2006
under the same sky, but different lives.
Unmaking what I've been searching for my whole life, a recollection of what I face each day, each hour, each time I unmake my destiny.Unmaking the made is impossible, for right now... fcuk.
my life just feels so.. stagnant. like i'm waiting for something to happen. like i'm waiting for something to pick me up and sweep me off my feet. i miss everything that has changed..
anyway, here's a list of my comfort food (buy for me to soothe my raging angst surging from within)
-raspberry donut
-cookies and cream ice cream
-strawberry pocky (the expensive one with strawberry bits on the side)
-chocolate koala biscuit
-tiramisu
-homemade famous amos brownies and cookies. packet mix also nevermind
-kit kat
-haagen dazs vanilla ice cream
-peanut butter and butter toast
for once i understand what people mean when they say a part of them is missing, and they feel emptiness. its exactly what im feeling now. goodbye my fellow friends, i miss you people very much. and hope you people are happier wherever you are.
posted by Pepsi on 5:47 PM
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Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Every effort that goes into making things right go unrecognised. Every slip-up is magnified out of proportion. People call up to highlight the injustices they have suffered, or they make such a big fuss that almost every media gets involved. Some are pretentious, assuming that they hold the moral high grounds and are thus entitled to sneer at those presumably beneath. hmm.. whats happening to the real world around us? masked-man everywhere. who to trust?perfectionism- is this your ultimatum?
posted by Pepsi on 9:26 PM
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Monday, March 27, 2006
delirium.I feel so tired now that I think I could hardly lift a muscle to even smile. I think my irrational delirium has kinda passed. From laughing uncontrollably about the state of things to having just a dazed look in my eyes. My sentences aren't even constructed properly. I read like 6 extracts just now and then started nodding off in startling fashion during chinese lesson. I feel like I would like to sleep, but I don't feel particularly sleepy anyway. Then again, while this time could be spent more constructively on Chemistry, it doesn't really feel like being touched. Time is a stupid bitch sometimes.
But anyway, no matter, listening to lyla kaylif makes me feel like I'm on drugs - in a good way though. I'm also listening to a somewhat R&B songs, which makes me feel slightly more carefree (reminscing the day i was clubbing in zouk). It's a long slow night, I think I might forget to go to school tomorrow. My brother is blasting his amplifier in my room. What a rotten night this is. OH GOSH- ITS FREAKING LOUD AND .. AND.. FCUKTARD!!!
posted by Pepsi on 9:05 PM
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Sunday, March 26, 2006
nobody gonna take me higher. 
being naive is actually not a bad thing. in fact you sometimes see things many people dont. i remeber the days when i was a small little kid thinking of being many many things, a pilot, lawyer and stuffs like that. of course, there was the usual nonsense suck as pawer rangers and spongebob, but thats ahem, besides the point. (BLEAH!) i was really convinced that i could meet my goal of course, being the small little MR AS-IF-I-KNOW-EVERYTHING i was. lol. but i guess these thoughts and conviction wore off over the years. now if someone was to tell me i could achieve that, i dont think i would have the same reaction i would have a couple of years ago. the world to me grew bigger as i grew older, and i started to be apprehensive about alot of things. but then again, with the losing of naive-ness comes maturity, and i think it really narrows down your point of view by alot. ALOT. some things can never be retrieved when you lose it. i dont wanna grow old, really.
ggaaarrrrhhhh. everyone has so many things to say about themselves. i'm quite sick of hearing certain over-exposed nonsense that just isnt right to be telling everyone. so what if you do and think this or that, no one gives two hoots on what you do or think.
posted by Pepsi on 4:36 PM
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