Saturday, February 25, 2006
This is an official apology to Soh Lay Peng . I am bad boy i have a big mouth, wo3 gai1 da3, wo3 gai1 ma4, i am evil person :x . But i shall be good person from now on and never make you angry anymore- because you are very scary when you are angry (haha, i reckon'). i promise i shall be extremely nice from now on and never make LayPeng angry again and only say good things about Laypeng because Laypeng is my favouritest swim,shopping,blah blah buddy of mine and she is good person. haha- SRY FOR THE XANDO!Boon Kiat is very very sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry.
Ok that was incredibly painful do you know how hard it is for me to set aside the male ego...Training "gay" (u know what i mean), very tired, sleep soon...
haha- all the best for me in my race tmr! laypeng, sry for asking u to take xando pills! hahahaha
posted by Pepsi on 8:53 PM
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Friday, February 24, 2006
to all my friends out there-
nothing to be taken too seriously.
have fun!!
Went to library today during econs lecture and tutorial (getting sick of it) and realised how quiet it is..I think it might even be a good heaven for playing poker cards or UNO cards, which incidentally can be modified to play bridge..
then we have no choice but to talk cock in the discussion room, which should be Bernard's forte (but before that, we studied chem for 2 solid hours alright?). Hahaha..for maximum fun and effect..leave your conscience at the door and simply enjoy the conversation.. or else the conversation will be punctured with comments like, "WAH LAU YOU ARE DAMN MEAN LA!" :D
Anyway..here's hoping that O2 will be as good as the first. hopefully in a better, decent jc.
posted by Pepsi on 10:12 PM
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Wednesday, February 22, 2006
guilt free living.I've decided that a great thing for me to do would be to focus on living guilt free. I know that sounds dangerous, but I think it's extremely important for me to do. I have sooooo much guilt in me about everything I do, it's overwhelming.
So here's my plan going forward: So long as my responsibilities are taken care of, I will not feel guilty about my actions or choices.
It's been getting progressively better every after run but the underlying feeling is still there. I'm really not feeling like myself and I'm concerned that's it's showing to the people around me. Anyways, I still feel like there is something that's trying to break out of my body, something that I'm simply not able to really touch or feel. I'm pretty certain it's the soul who's just dying inside to really get out and feel. I'm really not able to feel things the way that I should be feeling things, I just sort of have this numbness where I'm reacting on how I should intelligently... but not necessarily how I feel.
I need to focus on how i'm feeling in those moments and try to recognize why it is that I'm not really feeling it. That'll be my next task.
alone and forgotten-
posted by Pepsi on 4:58 PM
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Tuesday, February 21, 2006
i just came back from ex 4/9's chalet and it totally rocks. we mentioned times that were bad mainly when we were in sec4 and complaints we gave throughout the years. i can't help but to laugh yet be sad. laugh cos i'm really older now,the way i wrote the things that bothered me, the way i saw things, the way i reacted everything..has changed. yet i'm sad, because i no longer talk to half of the friends i was close with. it's amazing how we all said 'friends forever' and all, but we never kept them.words that meant nothing.
sad because i can't help but to realized that as i grow older, the uglier the world is becoming. sad because the more lonely i feel. it seems that when we were all young, we were so self-giving to each other and now that we are older, we become less innocent and all and i can't help but to think that there's no such thing as a 'true friend'. no one can be and no one is, uhm.. for some maybe.
i don't want to go back to the sec4 me. i want to see how much uglier the world can become, no matter how hurting it is.
posted by Pepsi on 3:15 PM
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Monday, February 20, 2006
i guess it's overi wonder where i'm going in my life. what i'll be when i grow up, where i'll go, where i'll live, what i'll work as, who i'll meet, what i'll do. and all of a sudden things seem so unstable and fragile, and i want to cling on today.
but then, today sucks as much as yesterday, and probably as much as tomorrow too. you never really know what's going to happen. one day you're sixteen and mugging and dreaming and listening to songs, the next you're out of ns and wondering where to go, and the next you're thirty and watching the dreams of your friends and looking back on twenty, building a family and various other things. 100 years and all.
i know where i'm going today though. i need to go for a chalet (haha!) and go for a run or i will not win the upcoming race. let the future take care of itself. pfft. i'll probably be wondering about in this in chalet later, though.
posted by Pepsi on 10:03 AM
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