Friday, February 10, 2006
initially, i was feeling reluctant to pour my honest feelings online, but i am back on track now. i'm actually quite shocked upon learning that i got a c6 for my english. this sucks- i thought i can actually score quite well for it, but it turned out to be the otherwise.yea- i attained 15 points- didnt do that well, but it aint THAT bad also. seriously, cos i've this feeling that i will get a score between 12-16, and true enough, it happened. anyway, i haven yet recover from the anxiety i went through just now. cos its like every subject (% for distinctions) is way above the national avg la- and i was hoping that i can do well- but a twist of fate, i did ALRIGHT. i reckon' haha.
sad to say, many of my frens were also disappointed with their results- esp those who wanted to go to a specific jc but couldn't make it, like me. sob................................... alright (pardon for the random thought) .
yeah- i was damn touched by khairyn's msg, it goes, " hey, dun be discouraged. results dun make or break u. what matter is that u've done ur best!". frankly speaking, i did put in my best esp in english, but the result sucks. and in contrast, i "hecked" physics and instead, i got a b3 for breezing thru the paper. wth. =(
i've grown wiser. upon knowing that there are still people in disguise. those who do well will shunned at u, those who do relatively okay have no comments, those who underperformed, i feel for them. really. its getting through me now. i know what i should do next.
ultimately, all i want for my future is to earn big bucks and be able to enjoy all luxuries in life.. i will, i definitely will. i have big plans for my still-bright future.
posted by Pepsi on 11:04 PM
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Thursday, February 09, 2006
i'm falling in love with luxurious by gwen stefani. "Sugar, honey, sexy baby....It's pure perfection when we kiss and you're my Mr.. I'm your Miss. Gonna be until we're old." sings away...hAHA- getting results tmr. feeling so empty now- LOST to be more precise. feeling damn sick today. went to sch, sharp pain in my neck. ignored. break, damn sleepy and sudden frequent chills. ignored. dismissal, caught in the rain- nth happen. went to carls jr to have lunch, my eyelids are heavy, felt like throwing up. ignored.... and went home- slept from 5-9. splitting headache and dammmnn.. its cold la..(indication of fever)
hAHA- shit- hope i get well tmr.
alright- a para abt tracy, since she demanded me to blog about her. HAHA- tracy! eh, if tmr i get good results then i go to your party okay? haha- cos u know, if i get more than 12, i will be crying until like shit la. anyway- i still remember you alright! see you tmr! all the best
to all those receiveing their o lvl results tmr- whatever your results come what may, be strong. ALL THE BEST!
posted by Pepsi on 10:16 PM
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Wednesday, February 08, 2006
i'm in a gloriously great mood today. happy wednesday! the weather is just AMAZING- thou janice said it was sorching.haha- even though i have a feeling tomorrow's gonna be back to dreary long boring day, i'm lapping up as much of the wonderful sunshine today. it's just so so lovely being out, with the sun shining on me every step of the way!and my classes are starting to be really really interesting. i'm starting to appreciate the participation efforts of everyone in class, esp in my maths class. and yea, i think the demands of this term arent easy but i'm captivated by them.
i just feel very fulfilled in all aspects of my life :) love. friends everywhere.
ah... life.....
alright, back to serious stuff. skipped today's trng and met janice in town. and it was incredible. so here it goes. i met janice and kerli?(spelling) at lido, den went to starbucks- waited for noel- and he basically quite friendly la- he brought his frens too- anyway, dont feel like talking much at that point of time. so, i kept my mouth shut for like 30 minutes? before all of us went on seperate ways.
ipod nano and creative zen neeon, incredibly long conversation, fcking awesome SHOPPING, jumbo water bottle of mine, janice and her butt-jokes, lanyard and pencil case, little-pink-tick-shoes i promised her if i make it to acjc, oscillating between happy and sad, bags bAGS BAGS, ignoring me as i pretended to be dumb... The past two hours or so have been- amazing, excruciating and painful. i have been "sleepwalking" my days away, and i really should wake up. get a life- this is what life should be.
after of which, i sent her home and the journey back was awesome- i like her ipod nano la.. totally irresistable. we make a pact that on friday, i'll go to her hse to sync songs from her com to my mp3 and vice versa. its soo cool! (if her results are awesome) she just wants to go home to have her lunch on friday before she goes bonker la-
en route home, we saw some acjc dudes boarding the same bus as we do- our dreams, my instinct is telling me that we can get into that sch- DEFINITELY. hha
posted by Pepsi on 7:53 PM
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Tuesday, February 07, 2006
its like we are only left with mere 60+ hrs and we will be getting back our results? OMG. this is terrible. i am freaking out!i am sooooo bad la- skipping econs tutorial and chinese lesson just to go for gathering with my frens? haha- basically, we (0623b) went to have lunch at pizza hut and after of which, we accompanied leon to shop for his flip-flops. he didnt buy la-so fickleminded, hAHA.
went to meet zhisheng and ate at sakae, and the food there was "alright" i reckon'. caught a movie and went to play pool with him, hy and joe.
this post is getting boring... shall stop here for the time being.
terrible terrible horrible feeling.
posted by Pepsi on 11:19 PM
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Monday, February 06, 2006
somehow i'm not feeling the least bit happy that i've got to know that the Grades would be out on friday. http://www.moe.gov.sg/press/2006/pr20060206.htmin fact i'm feeling awful.
i had no idea what i was thinking. that one paper is gonna change my life for the next 1 year or so. 1 year= 52weeks( i think)- haha
i couldn't wait to get the Grades actually. thought getting the Grades could help me run away from everything. paradox here, but yeah.
obviously it didn't. by taking this Grade i'm afraid of disappointing a whole lot of people. i have no idea how then will i be able to face them.
i really wish everything could just go back the way it was.
goodbye life, goodbye to everything.
i'm gonna watch fireworks later.
God help me.
your lil' helper.
posted by Pepsi on 7:28 PM
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