Saturday, September 03, 2005
countdown has now reached the single-digit phase. eek.okay i'm not crazy anymore
i'm feeling fine and fighting fit
watch out prelims
hurhur.
i will not be posting as frequnetly as i would do previously and the reason is OBVIOUS.
this time round, i shall do the same: i shall forget about my stupid targets which i can never acheive , spend the next ten days doing the damn work, and sit for the prelims, thinking about nothing but memorising good, solid notes. it is just the prelims, and the 'o' levels are what counts ultimately.
i will remember: for now, i am worth nothing, and i have nothing, apart from my examinations. this is all i have for now, and i will not forgive myself if i fuck it all up.
still a lil' bit of your taste in my mouth...
posted by Pepsi on 10:51 PM
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Friday, September 02, 2005
...except that it's not about Maths. I just fear the concept of an entity with no boundaries. Absolutely no peripheries.It scares me to think nobody will ever reach the end of it. Because we live in a real world where every space has a boundary somewhere.
I cringe at the thought of continually running and running towards nothingness, to your very last breath, where there's no finishing point at all. like the route we took today at macRitchie.
Infinity is just. crazy. I'm even afraid of staring at the sky.
The great beyond........
everyone is improving in leaps and bounces, why arent i ?
why some people are so smart and why arent i?
there's got more than what i've ever imagined that i ought to and i should do to get in to my dream-school.
I AM JUST F-ING FREAKED OUT BY PROSPECT OF TERM FOUR, arrrrgggghhhHHHH.
till then,
this phase of life is painful.
posted by Pepsi on 10:53 PM
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Thursday, September 01, 2005
i've got the blues.July was a crazy frenzy that left numbness. Early August a dream, with perhaps shouldnots but on second choice, probably down the same road.Leaving procrastination and laziness in it's full devastation.
Please, stop wasting time.It'll end up being like what she says, and you'll disappoint. And panic and yet know it'll all be your own fault. You'll regret, but it'll be too late. You'll frantically clutch at any possible means of escaping, but be guilty. Why let it go to all these?
Please, go study.
one more week to prelims. im so dead. today's teacher's day holiday. its a foretaste of how boring my september holidays will be. and how i'll be mugging straight through the whole week. yuck. i hate how the stupid sun decides to take a break when i wanna tan. and when i stay indoors, the sun is freaking strong.
and stupid me forgot to bring home the amaths txtbk! all the stuff that i should learn are inside. hai. yet another test i shall fail. :/i guess i'll have to resign to the fact that i should become a nerd wannabe like ness. but not that xiong.
how smart are WE...till then,
approached by a girl- "are u from st patrick?" she asked.
she IS CUTE!!!
posted by Pepsi on 10:13 PM
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005
fickle-minded...?
I wish I don't have to use that adjective on myself... but on the surface, that really seems to be so. It may very well point towards the indication that I'm not trusting God enough with regards to the future... but as I had the luxury to spend lots of time thinking over the past two weeks, I realised that many things have happened... and that they actually point towards a certain direction, despite the subtlety.
i am just too tired.
yup so now i'm at home desperately trying to cram in all the math concepts but it isn't really helping. which is why i'm on the computer hahahaha. maybe i should go for a run. nahhhhh too lazy. ok fine i'll go eat. and continue expanding.
whatever it is, i can't wait for tomorrow to be over! cuzzzzzzzzz after tomorrow, it's ALMOST over! hahahahaha. whatever.
till then,
fcuk you. haha.
posted by Pepsi on 10:40 PM
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Sunday, August 28, 2005
back to the BASIC.feeling so: bleahhh
thinking of: work!
song in my head: locked up
spinning track: goin' crazy
bleah. all i ever do is complain.
must stop complaining.
i'll be very happy when i get my STUPID WORK DONE.. wahahaha
this is the condition of my table now.. how to STUDY??
posted by Pepsi on 9:25 PM
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