Friday, July 09, 2004
tWinKle TwiNKle LiL' sTaR.. hOW i WonDEr wHat u ARE..
Some Says...
Some say love, it is a river
That drowns the tender reed
Some say love, it is a razor
That leaves your soul to bleed
Some say love, it is a hunger
An endless aching need
I say love, it is a flower
And you its only seed
It's the soul afraid of dreaming,
That never learns to dance
And the soul afraid of waking,
That never takes the chance
It's the one, who won't be taken
Who cannot seem to give
And the soul afraid of dying,
That never learns to live
When the night has been too lonely
And the road has been too long
When you feel that love is only
For the lucky and the strong
Just remember in the winter
Far beneath the bitter snow
Lies the seed that with the sun's love
In the spring becomes the rose
i believe it's taking me a long time for the person i want to be..
why ??
I wish I had a kryptonite cross...
because then I could keep Dracula and Superman away.
posted by Pepsi on 11:39 PM
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Wednesday, July 07, 2004
i am never real- it is just a sketch of me.
i agree totally- they are nothing but just feelings- and what i am experiencing now is nothing more than feelings- sigh~ what am i rambling about? can't help it... my mind and my heart no longer works together, only one can function at a time- it's either a logical me, or an emotional me-
the solution? shut down! perhaps this is the best way to get myself stabilise once more- once i shut down, i am just being a neutral me- don't have to think so much about the things i owuld usually bother myself with- and best of all, i feel numb to the happenings around me- i think by doing so, the days seem to pass by much faster-
10.30pm now... i had better sleep soon... i won't want ot feel groggy and heavy in my head tomorrow- i dunno how to do a.maths and feels like breaking down- how? dun really have the heart to concentrate... shadows in the mirror-
if i have faith that can move mountains,but not love, i am nothing- sigh+++
posted by Pepsi on 10:34 PM
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Tuesday, July 06, 2004
..daily dosage of chocolates..
+ i cant speak- i cant move- i cant breathe- i cant feel- i am unreal...+
YESTERDAY, TODAY & TOMORROW
~ Yesterday ~
I remember when I could hold your little hand in mine.
I could hold you close and safe and everything was fine.
I could wipe your tears away and help you with your pain.
If I were asked, I’d surely want to do it all again.
Looking back I remember all of the ups and downs
Your smile, your laugh, the times you cried when you were feeling down.
It’s hard to think that you might have to leave my loving arms.
We’ll meet that when it comes my child, till then stay warm and calm.
Fill your mind with peace and love, so that when it is time to go
you’ll have a smile upon your face, although our tears will flow.
~ Today ~
Now you’re gone, there is no one who will ever take your place
and I will treasure always, the sweet memory of your face.
If I close my eyes and think of you, I can see your smile.
I hear your voice and feel your hugs. It’s comfort for a while.
You have left yourself both in my mind and in my broken heart,
so we will never, ever be so very far apart .
I give you a large part of my heart as I take one last kiss.
I bid you goodbye with all my love, and please remember this...
I will, forever and always, treasure and love you so,
We’ll see each other again some time, in another place, I know.
I am told by everyone, that one day my heart will mend
But right now, I miss you so much; I just can’t see the end.
Courage is not easy for me to seek and find.
Sometimes it is a little voice talking in my mind.
It whispers gently to me that you’re not far away,
and maybe, that tomorrow, will be a brighter day.
~ Tomorrow ~
The longest nights in my life have only just begun.
I’ll lie awake and think of you, remembering all we’ve done.
I’ll think you might be all alone and that will make me sad.
I’ll remember dreams and wishes for your future that I had.
I will look up at the stars and I’ll see your twinkling eyes
through a mist of falling tears and sombre, darkened skies.
But I will watch your little star shining through the gloom
and I’ll reach out and you’ll be with me, right here in the room.
My saddened face will open to a warm and happy smile
and we will sit and reminisce for a little while.
this is for all drama ppl WHOM I LIKE- samantha,eliz,shiya,qinpei,andrea(drama),kaisoon,weiqiang,aeen,so on...
and for those WHOM I KNOW from this school la- jenn,janet,yiwen,yiping,yolkwhye,andrea,lisin,sinyee,huanqing,hueyteng,adibah,carmen,xueyuan,gladys,eileen,zhexuan,ben,yuding,zhisheng........ more and more...
y u all think i got stead huh?- i dun have leh- how arh?- haha- really- seriously, i dun have such honour to have 1 la- cos i kinda feel bad if i go on steady now- speaking from the truth- hmms.. i think tt......... i am .. arh- dunno how to say la-
blubbering eyes.. if only- if only i've 1 more..- just 1 more chance... will u ...??
replication of muted dysfunctional arse..
posted by Pepsi on 8:53 PM
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Monday, July 05, 2004
[n0 wInT3R lAsT 4eVa.. N0 sPriNg sKipS iTs tuRn...]
745- woke up
800- bath
855- took bus to cck mrt to meet eliz, qp and joan
915- reach there- late
1025-mrt to bedok
1100+ - reach- have breakfast- ate wanton mee plus pineapple drink
11-12- took bus 197? to marine parade
12+ - reach there-
-- - have a coconut drink and apply suntan lotion
1230- kayaking- mi share with qp- joan share with eliz
rest of the time till 6+ -play poker- talk everything under the sun- cycle- i fell- got lotsa cuts haha-
6-9- ate arnd old airport rd- bbq stingray- char kuay tiao- otah- zhu chang fen- sambal kang kong- bamboo drink with lemon- chicken wings and so on...
went back home after tt- something happen on the way which is kinda sad lor- budden i cant tell u- even if u plead mi- confidential.
here's something for all of u-
Once in a golden hour I cast to earth a seed. Up there came a flower, The people said, a weed. To and fro they went Thro' my garden bower, And muttering discontent Cursed me and my flower. Then it grew so tall It wore a crown of light, But thieves from o'er the wall Stole the seed by night. Sow'd it far and wide By every town and tower, Till all the people cried, "Splendid is the flower!" Read my little fable: He that runs may read. Most can raise the flowers now, For all have got the seed. And some are pretty enough, And some are poor indeed; And now again the people Call it but a weed
ignorance is bliss...
posted by Pepsi on 10:01 PM
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Sunday, July 04, 2004
ESPECIALLY FOR JOWENE (YIWEN)
You
You are friendly, kind and caring
Sensitive, loyal and understanding
Humerous, fun, secure and true
Always there... yes that's you.
Special, accepting, exciting and wise
Truthful and helpful, with honest blue eyes
Confiding, forgiving, cheerful and bright
Yes that's you... not one bit of spite.
You're one of a kind, different from others
Generous, charming, but not one that smothers
Optimistic, thoughtful, happy and game
But not just another... in the long chain.
Appreciative, warm and precious like gold
Our friendship won't tarnish or ever grow old
You'll always be there, I know that is true
I'll always be here... always for you.
nahs- here it is- copy and paste one- haha- hope u dun mind
if u cant be a good example- den be a horrible warning-
u noe hu u are- u narcissist- not for those hu are reading
posted by Pepsi on 10:55 PM
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