Pimpled-Face Freaks OUTTA here !!

2008-11-21T21:13:00.003+08:00

gone were the good ol' days.... as a trainee..

BMT POP PARADE. PLATOON 1 =)

ETI GRAD CEREMONY. MY BELOVED BUNKMATES--- BACK THEN. =))

a sudden nostalgia engulfed me when i chanced upon these photos taken back then when we were trainees.

though on seperate ways, i still hold fond memories of those days we have had and cherish the times when we crapped our butts out & siam-ing all sai kang like nobody's business.

yea, passed out as 3rd sgt.

i wish you all the best in wherever you are posted to.

keep in touch!

2008-11-16T15:57:00.004+08:00

I ELLA-ED!! =))

this is singapore indoor stadium AFTER the concert.

taken BEFORE the concert started (cos i am the first to reach. haha!)

see?! rihanna, i am so supportive of you OKAY? =)

minutes before the show starts...

and the show finally started.

i cannot upload the videos which i took cos the file size is too big. but nevertheless, i enjoyed myself thoroughly WITH those angmohs! =) screamed and boogied non-stop!

anyway, finally passed out with a 3rd sergeant rank and things are back to sqaure one again.

sad.

why so?

cos this means i will have lots of shitload work to carry out and whats worse, its boats that you are speaking of.

dang.

what a life.

yeah. just went for endurance run and my performance sucks.

i dont know what happen but its quite funny.

have u ever ran till ur back hurts?

no?

but i do. just now.

nvm. i am going for a massage session later on.

will see how my back goes.....

meanwhile, i am still in a "good girl gone bad" MODE.

ciaos!

2008-11-08T22:22:00.005+08:00

ella ella eh eh... under my umbrella... ella ella eh eh eh......

yay!

finally bought the ticket to see Rihanna's concert! =)

although i am going there alone, i think i SHOULD BE able to enjoy myself thoroughly. (just like ndp- i went there alone too! =))

WHO CARES? ISNT IT?

i am just there to enjoy and have fun!

anyway, graduation to become a 3rd sergeant is one day after rihanna's concert. reflecting back, this rank is earned from many occasions where blood, sweat and tears are shed and i would say its not easy at all.

but i still made it through. duh.

congrats to all who've made it!

meanwhile, i am all geared up for rihanna's concert!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (the $150 i spent better be good. heh)

disturbia.... disturbia...dum dum di da dum dum di dum dum....

2008-11-01T19:26:00.011+08:00

the IRONY of the word, GATHERING....

one gathering after another for 3 consecutive weeks. so happening huh?

went timbre @ the arts house with them again last night and it was a total bore. no, dont get me wrong. timbre is good, the songs are good; its the poeple i went with.

how so?

even before the band started, all of them started to complain, whine and eventually, they left- one after another. i was appalled and aghast by their behaviour. apart from that, i was thankful that at least my sister and her friend bothered to drop by to accompany me as they were around that vicinity at that point of time. =)

i was grateful to my sis- for she is going overseas today and had to wake up early. she didnt complaint. she still went to the extend of accompanying me listening to the live band and even asked if i wanted some dedications. yes, she wanted to dedicate some songs to cheer me up. how sweet can that be? thanks loads, my sister. haha!

for all these, i realise that your family and some of your closest friends are still the ones who will stand by you regardless of where are you (like yesterday my sis went to look for me at timbre), and when (it was around 10 pm last night). i was grateful for that.

anyway, lets not brood about this anymore.

no next time, i tell myself.

at least i ate that inhouse specialty thin crust pizzas, that buffalo wings, downed pints of beer and listened to my favourite songs from the live band at my favourite place.

satisfied enough. dont expect too much. HAHA.

here are the pics...

gathering week no 1....

gathering week no 2...

2008-10-03T22:10:00.002+08:00

i've been feeling down recently- even to the extent of getting depression i think.

it's kinda weird. i will get temperamental for every small things that are not going my way, and its so unbecoming of me.

the scary thing is, i know the reason behind my mood swings. and i have no intentions of changing it. how terrible can that be?

many people have noticed the sudden change in me and they asked me what actually caused this change. basically, i just cannot accept the fact that i keep losing out to others. to put it simply, i want to be the best in everything- no losing out.

yes, elitist mindset you say. but isnt that how society really works? if you are not up to mark, you are OUT of the race. (or rather, out of the clique)

com'on, lets face it.
no fantastic results- nevermind
not that rich- still okay
no looks- ...
no charisma- ...
socially inept- worse, and the list goes on.

so what to do? how can i be rich? how to be successful in all aspects of life??

yea, these whole load of "HOW" and "WHY" questions kept bothering me all these while and i am very disturbed.

i know all these worries are unneccessay but you dont know how big an aspiration i have.

VERY BIG INDEED.

while.. its for you to know and for me to figure out the resolutions to my problem.

i believe that one fine day, probably soon, i will have all the answers to my questions and everything will fall in place naturally.

give me some time.

test results quite true indeed...

2008-06-15T12:33:00.001+08:00

2008-05-17T10:16:00.000+08:00

DONT SHOW ME THAT FUCKING SHAG FACE!

show me something cuter; with a tiny bit of shagness...

2008-04-10T20:32:00.002+08:00

LOVES.... <3<3<3

THANK YOUS....

TO ALL

FOR GIVING ME SUCH A WONDERFUL TIME BEFORE I ENLIST-

TILL THEN,

DO TAKE CARE AND KEEP IN TOUCH ALRIGHT?

=)))))

and $2 for a nice hairdo...
-TO BECOME A MAN- hAHA!

2008-04-09T18:36:00.002+08:00

watched 881 today and almost cried my heart out. a really good local production in fact! (but never cry lah, just felt a big fat lump stuck in my throat and the feeling was terrible- trying very very hard to fight back my tears.)

this movie seem so dear to me because firstly, it is in hokkien dialouge and secondly, the plot of the story is meaningful! watch it and you will get what i mean.

i highly recommend this movie to all- especially to those who understands hokkien like laypeng. HAHA! i think you will cry like mad. =)))

anyway, here's one part of the movie i particularly like...

kinship and friendship- i will definitely treasure it more now after watching this meaningful and touching movie.

love,
to all.

2008-04-04T19:12:00.002+08:00

COUNTDOWN TO MY NS DAYS...

7 DAYS~

shit.

this is worrying.

and i am so gonna miss you, you and you for those happy memories you guys had given me prior to my NS days.

meanwhile, i am trying to settle down and switch my emo mode on again.

till then,
i am quite glad i am going to be a man soon.

WTF?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

p.s. my dear janice in california, please come back soon with all my pressies ( surfboard, surfshort, raisins and california babes...) and we will hi-tea and party like there's no tomorrow. i've contacted that super clubber, foong yuwen, and she is anticipating for our next meeting. see you real soon okay? you bitch. haha! =)

2008-04-02T11:27:00.002+08:00

haha! i did one quiz out of boredom and the results CLEARLY reflects ACCURATELY my choices that i've applied for university. =)

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
You scored as a Accounting/Finance/Marketing
You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Accounting, Finance, Economics, Marketing, or related majors (e.g., Computer/Management Information Systems (CIS or MIS), Entrepreneurship, International Business, Operations Management, Public Administration, Real Estate, Risk Management, Sports Management). It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it. Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests.

Accounting/Finance/Marketing 100%
Mathematics/Statistics 94%
Biology/Chemistry/Geology 88%
Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health 75%
HR/BusinessManagement 75%
Psychology/Sociology 69%
Education/Counseling 69%
Physics/Engineering/Computer 63%
English/Journalism/Comm 63%
PoliticalScience/Philosophy 63%
Visual&PerformingArts 50%
Religion/Theology 44%
French/Spanish/OtherLanguage 38%
History/Anthropology/LiberalArts 31%

so as you can see, the highlighted ones are my choices in the application for uni courses.

having read mine, why not you guys give it a try and see whether the courses you applied for are actually right for you?

here you go...
http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=35647N

2008-04-01T21:08:00.002+08:00

Mambo Jambo tomorrow night!!

LETS PARTY HARD HARD HARD BEFORE MY NS DAYS!

2008-03-28T19:48:00.005+08:00

to that "someone"..

excuse me.

i think you have been taking me for granted all these while and it made me seem like a fool. and i think you are behaving way too overboard.

Please, do write your own testimonial next time- if this is going to be the way you are going to treat me, i might as well do likewise to you in the future. (i was out of my mind to have sent you what i've written for my non-academic acheivements! but anyway, you cant use it too cos' you have never participated in what i participated in before, so HAHA!)

adulthood, independence, gratitude- i DO SINCERELY WISH that after this very instance, you will BE ABLE to come to realisation that i have been spoonfeeding you, leading you to someplace where it can do you good- but unfortunately, you failed YOURSELF.

as of some opinions i got from laypeng, i shall just delete you away from my list..

and from now on, i shall move on my way, take no pity on you whenever you are in trouble and lastly, PLEASE remember that you dont have the very right to define my self-worth based on your "good-looks".

goodbye, my friend.

-roll eyes-

2008-03-27T17:40:00.006+08:00

haha!

my good friend, laypeng, suggested that i eat crappy food for 3 days, then after of which eat health-ily for the next 3 days or so, so that i can become leaner and fitter. She cautioned me that during the 3 days of craapy food which i ate, i will look like this..... (picture below)

and i rebutted that if she was the one doing it, will she look like this??? (picture below)

HAHAHAHAHAHAH!

okay, i think i will get two tight slaps from her when we meet this saturday. hAHA!

and very gladly, another of my good friend, kaisoon, who MIA laypeng and me for approximately 3 weeks or so, finally came back from thailand this morning.. SO... THAT MEANS... we can finally have a get-together session once again on saturday! ( that is IF mr TEO KAISOON be able to make it this saturday)

meanwhile, who is interested in watching HORTON with me?

2008-03-26T18:35:00.003+08:00

My Dream- Raffles Place.

yes, i have part of the wall in my room painted with a portrait of some sky-scapers. Although not Raffles Place, i think its good enough to satisfy me with the black-and-white painting on the wall for a moment......

Oh Wells.......

Do you actually believe it? haha.. Give some thought to it. =))

2008-03-25T18:48:00.002+08:00

hello everyone,
i have been practicing my uber unhealthy routine of EAT-SLEEP-PLAY for almost a month.
but no worries, i am starting to enjoy it while it last (till my NS days at least) =)
have applied for uni courses and i am anticipating the outcome of which, and i am pretty confident i can get my first choice? =D
and not to let so many of you get a rude shock when i met you guys previously, i dyed my hair back to some dark dark dark dark brown from that golden jade brown you've last seen me with it.

BUT IT WAS AN EYE-OPENER FOR ALL, HUH!?

haha!

yea, thats pretty much the coverage of my life currently.

too little?

but i dont give two hoots about it. -grin widely-

2008-03-20T15:42:00.003+08:00

EEYER.

this is seriously a pain in the ARSE. as a matter of fact, it seems like my grades are the average norm out there (comparatively with those from the top schools) and the worse part is, most of them who got the same grade as me applied for the same courses as i do!

WTF?

i swear that i will work triple-ly hard if i get into my desired course and get a 1st class honors for that. (uhm... maybe a second upper will do). =)

so please please please please (pray superly hard) let me get my desired course and make my dream of becoming a private/investment banker come true...

alright, gotta go for a quick run before meeting tracy and gang for dinner at The Central. will update soon but no promises!

see ya!

-my pet starfish- partar.

"eh partar, say hello to the uncles and aunties out there who are looking at you! dont be rude, you silly"

2008-03-18T20:18:00.004+08:00

finally, after much deliberation and advice from my family as well as close relatives, i decided to give up SAT test for good.

WHY??

reason being, i am not in the right mind to study now because my stamina in studying has long vanished into the thin thin air (ever since i sat for physics paper 1 last year?). and despite ploughing through the many many many super thick SAT guidebooks which i've borrowed, although useful, i still see no light in me practicing my guts out those MCQs for the verbal part.

so i was thinking to myself- if the purpose of me to do the SAT test is to prove everyone that my english standard is those "can-make-it" type, and looking at my current situation, it isnt promising at all. i am still flipping through the dictionary looking up meanings for almost every word mentioned in the text, what does this show? simply, i dont have the apt in english! you know? its depressing!

yes, this is one sweeping statement, you never try, you never know- you'll say. but whats the point? i have to go ns, and i dont have the heart to study, and and there are many factors which urges me to just let go of SAT. excuses, no! moreover, for each section, we are given 30 mins to complete everything- i took 1.5 hours. so in a month time, i dont think i CAN improve that much- so no point.

most of the advice i got from my family and close relatives is that they encourage me to give up as this long hiatus hardly comes by and that 100 bucks for that SAT paper can be easily earned back. and i think this is seriously TRUE. i dont have to push myself so hard whereby there are simpler pleasures in life that i can enjoy!

and after so much serious thinking, i shall take a long break, after all those work, all the worrying of my A level results previously and what not...

gimme some time.

i aint superman.

i need time to rest too.....

2008-03-17T14:39:00.002+08:00

i feel like giving up SAT test in may.

i regretted registering it in the very first place out of my folly.

and the worse thing is, there is no refund of money when i cancel my registration! what the fuck is that? (uhm actually money is secondary but i just dont have the stamina to mug my ass off !!! how to do well you tell me?)

sigh

Boonkiat, can you please think through a certain something for 10437289723 times before you do it? Thats so silly of you! i am so disappointed in you man...

anyway, let this be an expensive lesson learnt by me.

ciaos! gotta go back and study! =((((

P.S. i studied the wrong thing for the first time of my life for SAT- and it suck.

2008-03-14T17:10:00.002+08:00

Its been a week since the release of results. time really flies huh? -feeling quite nostalgic about that very scene again-

Long as it might be, the frenzy over "what grades do you get", "so how? where do you want to go" kind of questions is still here to stay. While, on one hand, i felt quite proud to disclose my results to them but on another hand, i really hate it when my friends are disappointed over their results. It is really saddening to have seen them mug uber hard for the As and in the end, they didnt do too well (or rather, did not do as expected).

And to make things worse, i am not someone who is good at comforting someone and when they devulge their results to me, i am speechless. Its not that their results are bad, but its just that i am scared, scared of saying the wrong things to them- making them feel worse. How you tell me?

But anyway, i am quite grateful for the fact that people out there are not as cold as i thought they would be after the collection of results. While, i get to see some inspirational nick as well as some quirky ones from my contacts- "Dont look back anymore.. move one and have faith" and for the more extreme cases, "when will things start to look up =(", "so close still so far" and so on..

take a look at your msn list of contacts- i am sure there are lots of interesting nicks!

Have a nice time browsing through it!

2008-03-07T22:38:00.004+08:00

THERE YOU GO...

my A level results:

Chemistry(H2) - A
Mathematics(H2) - A
Physics(H2) - B
Econs(H1) - D
GP(H1) - E

yeah, quite satisfied with my overall results for my H2 subjects. As you can see, i am pretty much screwed up in my Econs and General paper for i placed little or rather, no emphasis on it ( applies to econs especially- GP i did study for it okay?) hAHA! anyway, i am glad i passed my GP. Can you imagine me, not passing a single gp paper since J2 till prelims and having to go through super intensive gp remedials but still not producing quality grades, now actually passed my gp? Yes, i thanked mdm betty tong dunno like how many thousand times....

Oh yes! That moment! it was magical; the feeling was great! The moment i saw my name being projected onto the very large screen, my jaws fell apart and i was screaming like mad. I couldnt believe that i am actually one of the people who did well for the exams (well, at least good enough for me) and i am glad most of my palsie in the class made it on the list as well!

Congrats to shihhan, engkien, justin, tianhao, tunkuang, celine, sinyee, huimei, patrick, yangxi, shumin, weifen and many many others whose names are screened on the very very large screen. =)) hard work pays off huh?! Also, not forgetting haikal, chin chian, revathi and all those who do well too!!

Yea, we expressed our gratitude to mdm betty tong, miss chan, miss xiao, mr james koh and even Charlie chan for producing these results. If not for them, i would have flunk many of my subjects....

Anyway, results out, come what be, i still wish everyone all the best in their future endeavour.....

BEST WISHES TO ALL! =)

2008-03-04T19:50:00.004+08:00

YOU HEARD THE LATEST NEWS???

NO NO! NO MORE EDISON CHEN.....

RATHER, A LEVELS RESULTS ARE COMING OUT THIS FRIDAY! (freak out)

Anyway, this, the evidence... (click to have a larger view of it)

and to make things worse, already not-very-confident of getting good grades for this A levels, my dear physics teacher called me. He asked for my results- and i was stunned; my mind blank.

As the day draws near, the more sceptical am i to my results. I have been telling everyone that. But most of them are optimistic about my results (which me myself dont even dare to dream to getting straight As) and i am afraid i might let them down...

YOU TELL ME HOW?

i aint no RJC/HCI student you know? that "pick-up-a-stone-and-throw-at-anyone-and-that-person-is-likely-to-be-a-straight-As-student" kind of situation doesnt hold for PJC (although i HAVE TO ADMIT the fact that PJC does produce some cream of the crop, but HOW MANY? YOU SAY???). my plight is grim, and the situation is truly as such.

anyway, my anxiety is building up, and the syndrome of insomnia is beginning to show.

HELP ME- SAVE ME FROM THIS AGONY

just give me my desired grades and to my desired course...

i must be insane.

2008-03-03T17:26:00.004+08:00

THE LEAP YEARS

"a sage once decreed, that a man must agree to a woman's proposal today... give me a sign, whether to meet me at eight at the same place you sit and fulfill the tradition of febuary 29th...."

sounds familiar? no? not at all? well, its a short short short excerpt from the movie "the leap years".

Yes, i caught the first show today at cineleisure and i think it was a good one (if you are one who goes for some old fashion romance with some good local flavour that is) overall. i love this movie truck loads, especially wong li-lin (my idol) haha!

I have to admit that the movie is quite touching and romantic although there are occasional touch-and-go parts which will leave us quite perplexed. BUT on the whole, a great movie indeed, not over-rated at all. i just think that the movie critics from The Straits Times and LIVE938 News too stingy with their stars for the ratings. Should have given the movie 3.5 stars! (Have to admit the movie is not perfect but at least it is commendable!)

well, go catch this movie if you have the time. I gurantee you will like it (cause even a love-idiot like me knows how to appreciate this local production, why cant you?)

NEXT MOVIE: P.S. I LOVE YOU (sry, have been living behind time all these while.. please give me somemore time.. =)) )

go to this link for more details.....

http://www.mediacorpraintree.com/TLY/

2008-03-02T17:18:00.003+08:00

TOKYO-RESTAURANT

can someone please watch over my diet? It's becoming bad to worse... Ever since i stepped out of GE (working-life that is), i've been gorging myself with utterly sinful indulgence and with no stop to it.

Furthermore, i've been practising the uber unhealthy routine of "EAT-SLEEP-PLAY" with no free slots for training/conditioning exercises for my NS due in April. i think i am so dead for my BMT. =(

anyway, here are some of the kiddish shots i took yesterday at the Tokyo-japanese restaurant at Amara hotel as it was my Dad's annual "Big-shots" get-together session for the year.....

ENJOY!

paper steamboat. with fresh salmon (or tuna?) -not that i know of)

Cheerios.. with that ghastly crumpled tissue paper on my table.

oh what? HAHA! sorry for that face. you guys can try figure out what word am i trying to say while this shot was being taken. -no prizes for guessing the right word!- HAHA

one last shot from the previous post...

i love this candid shot...

meanwhile, for those waiting for A level results, hold your breath.... everything will turn out to be fine. OPTIMISTIC! OPTIMISTIC! OPTIMISTIC!

all the best to you! =)

2008-02-29T14:49:00.001+08:00

ITS LEAP YEAR! BABY!

i wanted to mean, leap-day...

2008-02-28T11:12:00.010+08:00

ex-49 gathering

above is a more decent version... and as we're getting bored, me and jannah decided to club outside instead! HAHAHA! the cha-cha VERSION below..

yesterday night was uber fun! apart from the cam-whoring session we'd have during our dinner, we also immersed ourselves in our hearty chat and monstrous laughters. HAHA! though on separate ways, but our bonds still hold strong!

YES, the spirit of 4/9! =)

we went to zouk after that............ in the hope of going into phuture.

No, dont make conclusion that fast.. we didnt manage to get in! cos' the queue was freaking long when we reach at about say, 10 pm? and its already full-house. (shake head, youngsters nowadays. HAHA)

anyway, these are the only few photos posted which i think they deserved to be posted at my blog cos its the so-called "more decent" looking ones. before i end off, here's another photo to add some flavour to my blog.

there you go---> the JOKE OF YESTER-DAY. HAHA

STAY TUNED!

2008-02-27T11:15:00.004+08:00

How i wish my birthday would be like this... definitely a once in a year kind of BIG event.

Thats why i say, money should be spent on the things we like- i like fireworks. WHY NOT?

-as long as i am happy-

enjoy the clips! (watch the first one followed by the second- then you'll be mesmerized by it) =)

2008-02-18T20:14:00.001+08:00

FEELING SO "BLAH"...

2008-02-13T20:35:00.002+08:00

G.L.A.M.O.R.O.U.S.

Happy Valentine's Day to all in advance!

Going to blu jaz cafe to chill out tmr with my best friend, Auntie Soh. hAHA! -our uncountable number of years of SINGLEHOOD AND STILL GOING ON STRONG... =)

Anyway, have a fun valentines day ahead!

ciaos!

2008-01-30T21:40:00.000+08:00

me; the absolute epitome of "THINKING TOO MUCH"

it just occurred to me suddenly that my heart is thumping ever-so-furiously after i managed to solve one of my brother's A.math questions. It's been a year or so since i last experienced it (if i remembered correctly, it was during the release of A level chinese results and i was almost breathless).

Sounds ridiculous of me to get nerved up over one trivial A. math question but that's NOT THE POINT. Something is seriously wrong with me, i think. I tend to get pressurize by lil' lil' things in life. This, i believe, bogs down to the ever increasing competitive society that we lived in:

"IF YOU ARE NOWHERE ABOVE THE BENCHMARK; OUT YOU GO! "

My mentality- the ultra-kiasu kind. If i can solve an easy A.math question BUT if it took me more than 1 minute to solve it, i will feel that i am not up to mark and start feeling guilty and worried about other aspects of my life. Alot of "What ifs" question keep popping and fading away, making me stressed up and full of anxiety.

I know this is not good for my health.
I know everyone of you must be thinking that i must have gone NUTS or what after A levels.
I know this is simply RIDICULOUS.
I know this is simply ABSURD.
I know things that you know......

After writing so much stuffs, i know that the next thing i am going to worry about is my "A" level results.

Too early to even think about it? I dont think so.....

Plan B- i am working on it now...

2008-01-28T22:17:00.000+08:00

All of a sudden, i am so sadden by my life right now. Yes, you've guessed it right. it's work that makes me so miserable, so distraught.

No, there's no office politics i swear- at least i am not the one who is involved in it. =) Colleauges are good and friendly... Its just that i think i aint getting anything back from work. Everything seem so bleak and mundane to me.

Really... seriously, i want to spice up my life. This is totally driving me nuts! No way am i going to sit down there and stare blankly into the cold, unfeeling laptop screen of mine for 8 straight hours!

Whats worst is the very fact that i have to fake infront of my bosses. Take for instance, when you are uber free and have nothing to do, you STILL HAVE to pretend AS IF you are fcuking busy of sorts. WHAT THE HELL IS HAPPENING TO ME? Not that i am super enthu in doing work; its just that i think back-end office work is not my cup of tea. I'd prefer more interaction with clients (no, dont get me wrong, no tele-marketing) and meeting up discussing about some BIG BUSINESS.

WHAT I MEAN IS SIMPLY..... BUSINESS.

You know? The kind whereby everyone goes for a game of golf, sipping some espresso by some high-class cafe, get that damn piece of paper signed and JOB DONE. Sounds easy huh? But i know it takes one to be really good and professional with the way they relate to the customers and be confident when they speak.

What have i got? Nothing that i know of.

This, is really saddening.

Seems like i've fallen back to ground zero where i've to brace up and fight for what i really want. I've got to start from somewhere. And here, i mean NOW, is the SOMEWHERE.

sigh....

After so much rantings, i know that afterall, all i want is just happiness and satisfaction........

Dont you agree with me?

2008-01-26T11:03:00.000+08:00

Chill-out; now i now the true meaning of it~~

yesterday night was AWESOME. went to miss clarity's cafe for some nice and warming dinner which got rather sinful in the end. hAHA. mud-ooze was superly chocolatey but as each mouthful we swallowed down, it was as if we've gained some 12378 pounds. but overall, it was GREAT! =) -grins widely-

went for a chilling out session by indonchine opp UOB plaza. nice ambience, especially with the close ones (my cousins) you're with. JX almost went crazy when me and JH promise to hold her 21st b'dae bash at timbre. hAHA! =))) chatted our hearts out and really immersed ourselves in the dim lightings, cosy surroundings and the jazz tunes played by the live band.

p.s- our next destination: PHUTURE, ZOUK. haha!

this is the kind of life i yearn for- hi-life yet laid back; the "richness" of what my life is endowed with.

now that i've sat by the bay, got a taste of what rich workaholic do after work and seen the night view of the CBD; my dreams, i will realise you......

2008-01-22T20:42:00.000+08:00

ice caramel macchiato.

today's work was slack, NO, is SUPER slack. to put it simply, my presence at the workplace was totally obsolete. but anyway, i had a good start for the day- and i shall not mention what it is.

pretty good day today indeed. a sudden lost for words- will fill you in next entry.

meanwhile, for those who are working, HANG IN THERE! its already the middle of the week! fast huh?

till my next entry,
take truck loads of care and stay cheerful! =)

2008-01-10T20:33:00.000+08:00

can you believe it? its already the 3rd week that i am working at GE.

time really flies huh? (but not during work though, sadly) HAHA.

although i have the working desk all to myself- a super big space indeed- a company's laptop and a desktop, and many many other things.. BUT I STILL DONT LIKE TO WORK!

colleagues are good; just blame it on my plain laziness. DANG.

WAKE UP! MR LIM!

DONT ESCAPE FROM WORK!

5 MORE WEEKS AND YOU'LL BE ALMOST FREE!!! =)

i love fridays.

2007-12-24T12:14:00.000+08:00

ONE OF MY BEST-FRIENDS IN CLASS (PJC): RECRUIT TOH JING XIANG

HAHAHA! HE CALLED ME OUT OF THE BLUE YESTERDAY WHILE I WAS BUSY SHOPPING FOR SOME X'MAS PRESENT WITH ALVIN. ANYWAY, I WAS SUPER TOUCHED THAT HE CALLED ME FOR A CHAT GIVEN THE FACT THAT HE'S IN TEKONG. THAT MEANS, HE MUST'VE MISSED ME! HAHA!

YEAH, RECRUIT TOH, YOU'D BETTER BEHAVE YOURSELF INSIDE AND DONT GET AWAY WITH CONFINEMENT ON JAN 5TH! - TO SUPPORT ALVIN KUEK IN HIS INTER-JC PAGEANT COMPETITION =))))

AND TO ALL, HAVE A NICE WARMING CHRISTMAS LATER AND ENJOY!

2007-12-21T22:08:00.000+08:00

S.O.S

I TOTALLY HAVE NO IDEA OF WHAT PRESENT TO GET FOR THEM THIS CHRISTMAS....

2007-12-20T20:56:00.000+08:00

OH MAN, A YEAR IS SOON TO GO BY..... AND MARINA BAY IS WAITING FOR ME TO USHER IN A BRAND NEW YEAR! =)

Its another time of the year again for me to take some time off to reflect about the things that have been happening to me for the past one year. though its a little too early for this, but i think we got to start from somewhere, and i've decided to start it today. =) maybe tomorrow i think, super tired.

i know i havent been blogging for awhile and that speaks for my uber hectic schedule due to the major exam- THE A LEVELS- and its killing me for nuts. its pretty obvious i reckon'. hAHA!

strangely, perhaps not too strangely, this year's been not a very good year for me. apart from my academia, life in itself is not a bed of roses either. on a positive note, i am glad that there are many of whom like my besties and my family members to confide in whenever i do face with some problems in life. =) in fact, if not for them, i think i would have suffered depression now. HAHA!

i have gone through lots this year and i believe that what doesnt kill me will make me a stronger person. hopefully, the coming year would be filled with lots of PLEASANT SURPRISES and not some RUDE SHOCK for me as it is of this year. i am sure i do have enough of it for the time being.

alright, i've got everything in life (uhm, no, not everything- but the VERY BASICS of life) but still aint satisfied with it. i think.... i think..... i think i need some fireworks to sparkle my way through 2008 with a loud BANG and sorry for having to end abruptly, cos i aint no cowboy but also BUSY, hahahha, to wish all of you a VERY HAPPY 2008!!!!

ps.though christmas is not here yet but i dont think i will have the time to come and blog again- many nights of parties to aniticipate for!!!=))

2007-12-19T13:53:00.000+08:00

SNAP SNAP SNAP SNAP SNAP.....

everything seems like a slide show these days: life is like a collage of deja vu and sometimes, i wonder, how will the next moment of my life be then.

silence, and questions that will not be answered until it's too late, too irrevocable.

2007-12-18T10:12:00.000+08:00

IT HAPPENED AGAIN...

all these nights i've been dreaming; i dreamt of my A level results and no, its not a very pleasant one. As a matter of fact, the more i tried to forget about THE OUTCOME, the more nasty my nightmare becomes.

The scenario is super standard: the collection of my results took place at my school hall. it was dark, wet and cold. everyone was satisfied over their results but i'm not- all because i scored A S D S. (wtf? i cant imagine what if it really happens. shudders upon the very thought of it) and then, there would be red alarm sounding everywhere for us to evacuate from the school hall and DANG, i woke up.

its really disturbing me alot, impeding me from enjoying my long-awaited holidays which are already here.

UMPTEENTH TIME.

i think i've got bad premonition; or am i just thinking too much?

today, i write the saddest lines.

2007-12-05T14:47:00.000+08:00

i am back, from post prom AT THE ARENA.

well, it was plain boring i should say but the one thing that made my night was the hearty chat with my ex-classmates like engkien, jingxiang, janson and others.

-NOTE- JANSON YOU OWE ME A CUPPA STARBUCKS COFFEE =)

PLUS!

MY HAIR POKED ENGKIEN'S EYE when we were at the dance floor- how hilarious was that? and he cant stand the loud music when we were clubbing. HAHA.

pictures up next time!

moving on,

i had a super funny chat with one of my pals, during my "first-three-months" days back then when we were at innova- known as janice.

although she's like 5839208432 miles away from singapore (more specifically- california, usa), we still keep in touch and promised to send each other parcels (which she'd yet to do so, but nvm- I KNEW IT! hAHA!).

and here's a snapshot of one of the FUNNY THANG which we talked about.

alright,

promised to send her a card before x'mas.

till then,

play HARD!

2007-10-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

BUT THE SITUATION IS TRULY AS SUCH.........

i am feeling it.

as in, this time, ITS FOR REAL.

i am feeling all jittery and not confident at all for my upcoming A's. its like 16 more freaking short days before the start of my first paper.

-crying out loud FOR PHYSICS!-

anyway, please pray hard for me that i would get at least a AABB plus a pass in GP for my As.

omgomgomgomg. okayy- getting paranoid and worried.

meanwhile, when i am studying hard, and as you guys are too, i will definitely NOT forget those happy times we've had together. especially to my clique (the 5 of us) and those who stood by me all these while.....

to all- i wish you all the best in your A levels and bag as many As as possible!! GOOD LUCK!

something that made my day today: spoke to yuding at msn today. i can see some light in the dark tunnel finally... =)))))

2007-10-04T17:38:00.000+08:00

I WANT MY As !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

DESPERATELY.

JUST DROPPING BY TO SAY THAT I CANT WAIT TO MEET UP MY BESTIES THIS SATURDAY! =))

MEANWHILE, THIS IS MY MORALE BOOSTER.

PRESENTING TO YOU

THE WALL STREET BULL!

I AM ALL SET FOR THE A LEVELS!

JUST GIVE ME MY As!!!

Okay, enough of crap.

MY BOOKS ARE BECKONING ME. HOW SWEET IS THAT?

=))))

2007-09-24T21:36:00.000+08:00

these few days were good!

nevermind about the outcome of which but after i did my prelims, i just realised that i've loads of things to catch up- say for example... physics?

I WANT TO ACE EVERYTHING! (unfortunately, i have not reached that level just as yet.)

time will tell me everything that i need to know for A levels, hopefully. =)
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anyway, i met up with zhisheng for a nice long swim and to have my long awaited sushi buffet i'd promised myself long time back. its nice to catch up with some of our pals amidst of our super hectic schedule. =)

no big deal for the former. but the one thing that touched me the most today was that he took the time off today for me because today is the day whereby both of us dont have to go to school. lame as it might sound BUT you know what? he actually have papers for the next two days! its supposedly to be his study break today but he'd forewent his studybreak just to meet up with the insignificant me!

i was TOTALLY SHOCKED WHEN HE TOLD ME THIS. (plus a tinge of guilt in me as i was the one who asked him out yesterday night.)

yeah, thats how you measure friendship; through the non-material way. i am really glad that i've such friends around me.

see? i am booked till dec 4th. can't wait to meet up with him after my A's for the marathon with him, since he'd self-declared its hols for him already! HAHAH!

and something to cheer for, i will be meeting up my super besties (laypeng and kaisoon) on oct 6! ZOMG- after nearly one gozillion years, we finally get to meet up! =)))))

thinking back on "how tough" life is for me when i am slogging my way through prelims, i realised that how blessed am i to have my family and a few friends around me to give me that motivation to clear my prelims.

you dont need alot of attention; just some simple encouragement is enough to set one on the go.

just like what the orator from "project happiness" had said, "the true happiness in life is life in itself."

think about it. =)

2007-07-25T21:49:00.000+08:00

TA-DAH!

i managed to take a picture with LINLI today.

she's so pretty, like omg.

okay- a double-shot happy day today.

=)))

2007-07-03T20:10:00.000+08:00

"You think that I'm stupid."

We had The Conversation. it was a rather short but meaningful one.

it's not that i can no longer live without that person, because i am just not needy any more. (Well i still prefer to have someone around, but take away my crutches and i'll whine rather than collapse into a heap.) but really, all the same, I think I've paid my dues.

finally straightened out my thoughts.

for the rest of the year, i'll be the one who is earthbound, and it will be all up to that person, and the obligation can finally stop. we'll see. but friendship has a habit of forgiving all imperfections, and invalidating all attempts at calculation. at the end of the day it's all about finding your own little patch of home, isn't it?

2007-06-23T19:16:00.000+08:00

once is REALLY enough.

while, its been quite a while since i last blogged (duh, its so apparent) hAHA.

i have not been good.

-i have a terrible pimples breakout
-i have to study like FCUK but in the end, i cant even do some simple questions for my mid years (applies to physics IN PARTICULAR)
-i have to let go of my past
-i still have another week of exams to go
-AND I HATE MY CURRENT LIFE NOW.

yeah, mugging mugging mugging... i am feeling so miserable, so depressed right now. its like, i just realised that for all my life, i have been studying and did nothing that i truly enjoyed. yes, "get a life," some of you might say. but isnt it appropriate for me to take a back seat now?

HELLO?! "A" LEVELS IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER!

i just cant imagine how time flies. and i am totally unprepared for it. i do seriously want to get my A's. but looking at my current status now, i am so so afraid that i cant even manage a single A.

everything just seem so hard and distant to me, out of the blue.

i have been studying hard- but studying smart is all another thing, which is questionable to me.

inspite of taking some time off ploughing through physics notes, i still cant even make sense out of a single question.and at that point of time, i had a fcuking mental block too. its screwed. this time, ITS FOR REAL.

I FAILED MISERABLY. (to the extent whereby i think i will get single digit)

how sad? you tell me?

not only this. i did not do well in other papers too. =((

but thinking back, its not that bad anyway- cos i did studied and i've tried my best. i am answerable for my results at least.

to divert a little attention away from this topic for now, i shall talk about the good things that have been good for me.

while, i got to know more friends, like... xinru (the ultimate clubber + flinger + uber rich + popular + good looking + ....) ? HAHAH! yeah, everyones been talking about how bad or rather, how smug he seem to be. but after meeting him and chatted with him on two different occasion, he's not a BAD person after all. he is just not VERY good in words though. and and.... yeah, another person is michelle- not very clear about her. but shes the volleyball captain from ajc. yeah, she's quite hot! and i think she's got a thang for xr? hahaha! we chatted too. shes quite a SOMEBODY person. interesting. we exchanged contacts anyway.

oh well, i got to know these two person via ANLI, my dear acjc friend. =) okay, she's just came back from bintan with xinru (both went for different purposes- one for OCIP, another for vacation) and we met up yesterday. we had a helluva time chatting about their trip and some other private stuffs which anli simply cant take it (scandals). our friendship blossomed. HAHAHAHAH! well................... i appreciate that you took the trouble to buy some gift for me- the ambercrombie polo tee- DONT ASK ME TO SELL IT ON E-BAY! uhm.. an LV wallet would be nice if you happen to go there for your next trip again alright? HAHAH!

and apart from this, i met up with laypeng. shes damn funny. shall not elaborate or esle this post wont end. HAHA. anyway, she gave me really good advice and it seriously brought some sense unto me. hAHA! next friday shall be the day alright?

i missed the AH-SIAOs! (aka laypeng and kaisoon) okayyy.. i cant wait for friday to come.

and fireworks next saturday!!! woohoo.

ugghh, before i can really enjoy these things, i promise myself that i shall really work productively for my last few papers and make it worth it- cos you know, after the physics paper, i was totally aghast and appalled at the way i have been doing things. its a HUMBLING EXPERIENCE for me.

alright, its a long post. hoped you enjoyed.

in the meantime, to those who are having their exams now- study hard and all the best for your exams! dont worry,you are never alone...

for all these; i learnt.

2007-06-07T15:01:00.000+08:00

hanging over at alvin's place was GREAT. albeit we crapped and hollered like nobody's business, i still managed to accomplish my planned-regime before i got to his house back then. productive study session for him? this is questionable.. hAHA!

we ate, we laid back and talked our hearts out, we played our own version of poker cards (his reaction is damn slow..=)), we studied, we watched spongebob vcds, we laughed, we sang songs, he played the guitar, we slept..

in merely 14 hours or so, i got to know soooo much more about him and we became like brother-of-sorts. and he took some spastic pics of me while i was lying on his bed studying.........- damn shagged now. NO VARIATION IN TONE FOR THIS POST. so sry.

i enjoyed myself.

the world is full of love, warmth, and everything good.

2007-05-05T19:21:00.000+08:00

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okay, what a random post this is.

yeah, its quite apparent that i blog to kill time.

anyway, to all out there, take care of yourself to refrain from being sick.

SMILES =))

2007-03-26T16:38:00.000+08:00

i have a rant.

why does it seem more important to them that they love to live a life of super high resolution, than that of clearing up that pile of shat that is right under their nose? i just dont understand. honestly, what is the marginal benefit of tweaking the resolution that much when the original quality is good enough-surely my bionic eyes are able to tolerate the dismal quality of their images?

com'on, people. be PRACTICAL.

luckily, i still have someone out there who's willing and keen to stand by me (until now) -grins widely-

they are none other than my 2 besties, my "hao jie mei", or rather, "my hao xiong di" from that PRESTIGIOUS ACJC (like finally, I BLOGGED ABOUT YOU =)), my close cousins and my family. like omg please.

some people are just god-damned-tsk and i dont even give 2 hoots about them. bear with it? well, that's a well-placed question mark. i havent the faintest clue what that was supposed to mean, but it was a tick-or-cross field.

i chose the latter.

i miss my secondary school friends. not all of them, just those to whom i've grown rather close to. i'd never thought it'd happen, but then again i never expected to meet even remotely intelligent people anywhere inside (or rather, that even if i did, it'd be too late, way after their brains had been totally eaten away by the this most powerful oxidising agent). god damn, but i'll be seeing them on friday. hAHA!

i really cannot contain the excitement.

and i mean it.

2007-03-24T14:14:00.000+08:00

the number, EIGHT.

-whats up with that, you say.-

hAHA. thats the number of pull-ups i can do currently. while, its not E.X.C.E.P.T.I.O.N.A.L.L.Y good but still, its my best effort. so it counts. DOESNT IT?

YOU DIE.

anyway, i think i almost screw up every paper of my common test. the papers are so disastrous. seriously, i dont even know what happen to me that i just lacked that stamina to sit down and mug hard (erm, i did mug hard- but just that nothing went in.) =(

its okay lah. at least i attempted the questions and i shall repent. no more distractions from now on! but the one thing that is very "WAH LAU EH" is the fact that every other people dont have to study hard and yet they got the results, but WHY NOT ME? so tsk please.

> 10 hours or so of studying each day, sleeping in and waking up in the WEE hours just to recap... these are the things i did for the past 3 weeks or so. WHAT A SAD LIFE, HUH?!

nevermind- i am answerable to myself at least.

LIKE DANG.

okay, what a random random post this is.

i am listening to some ah-beng techno songs now. OH, HOW NICE CAN THAT BE? HAHAHAHA. and i think there's something seriously wrong with my taste and preference nowadays. dont even have the slightest idea of what is really going on in my mind. HOW, YOU TELL ME?

whatever please, gonna pack my stuffs now for a nice evening run at east coast with my besties.

-till then-
see you soon.

2007-03-05T18:16:00.000+08:00

ahhhh! its been a super long long long long long time since i last blogged.

apparently, my mood is good today. well, not exactly very good but still, good enough to sign in and blog something which occurred to me like... a few days back?

alright- the thing is, my BESTIE, teo kai soon, scored 4 As in his A levels. well, i was almost taken aback; cos i wasnt expecting him to get like.. 4 As? well, a lesson learnt- not to judge a book by its cover. =) anyway, WELL DONE! KAISOON.

apart from this, i attained an A in my chinese too. although i took like only 1 pathetic subject (apart from PW) last year, i was almost freaking out upon the release of the chinese results; reason being- i THOUGHT i was too complacent to the end of the year when sitting for the paper, and i didnt expect the outcome to be what i've expected. a pleasant surprise indeed. =D

so.. as what another bestie of mine (by the way, i only have 2- kai and laypeng) said, DOUBLE HAPPINESS- thus, she intended to bring us to club this weekend! WOOHOO~~

and i am still contemplating about the present for alvin. how? you tell me, stupid alvin. HAHA

okay. i dont feel like blogging suddenly. =)

but i just want to tell you guys that wentworth miller looks a lil' like me. -winks-

2007-02-06T17:49:00.000+08:00

true colours.

should i? or should i not?

been thinking of getting my ex-coach for swimming to coach me again. but the thing is, its been SIX years since i last swam for competitive you see. and needless to say, my stamina deteriorate like nobody's business. another reason is that i can cease this opportunity to ask him to appeal to the school to let swimming be my external cca- not that my swimming is exceptionally good, but if this can add some flavour to my testimonial, why not?

apparently, everyone is full of qualms. the "what ifs", "are you", "do you know", "i think", "why did he" kind of questions keep popping in and out of everyones mind. now i know why sometimes they say the closest of all friends are actually your enemies, and those whom you actually dislike are actually those who help you alot, in one way or another perhaps.

its quite perplexing for me to figure out the motives and reasons for the actions one do. already bogged down with lots of revision, tutorials, tys questions..... , i really raise my white flag when comes to classroom politics. and yes, i find it quite awkward sometimes when facing my class; prolly due to the fact that i am the class manager of the class and yet, i am in the centre of the limelight when comes the bitching session.

i know partly i am at fault, and i apologise to that. like what james koh said, "dont judge any people, and that will make you a happier person." do something about yourself.

i think its time for a big big change.

think about it, people. =)

2007-02-03T21:40:00.000+08:00

i got the forth place from the bottom. hAHA.

needless to say lah.

but the whole course was fun. get to know a guy from ite(west) who looks like hong jun yang from season 1 of project superstar! but the funny thing is, his name is weilun. while, before the start of the race, we were whining about how unprepared we were and we decided to share the same lane for swimming. our talks were soo random and hilarious please.=))

and the race started.

i was lagging behind the other swimmers but weilun was behind me, so he gave me the motivation to swim continuously w/o stopping. but when comes the last few laps, he suddenly caught up with me and i started to swim anyhow, to the extent of gulping down a few mouthfuls of water. tsk!

and i was sooo lazy to put on my running shorts when i came out of the pool cos it was oh-so-tiring after that competitive swim. despite the fact that weilun reached the finishing line for the swim a few seconds before i did, i ran faster than him, for the first 2 km or so. HAHA. after of which, he freakingly caught me up yet again when we were halfway up the slope.

then, thats the end of the race. consider myself to be very very lucky not to be the last already. HAHA.

we exchanged a smile, only after the race.

and i saw my secondary friends down there as well!!!! they got 2nd and 4th respectively. yeah, feel soo proud of them please, my juniors.

they asked me whether am i joining nus biathlon or not.

it depends.

both my swimming and running sucks you see. HAHA!

i know you guys wanted to know how i fare.

so here it is, a concrete proof of me NOT THAT PERFECT AND SUPERIOR. =(

2007-02-01T20:48:00.000+08:00

sometimes, i just dont understand what you are up to.

seriously.

maybe you just need to try a lil' harder next time infront of me. but good try anyway.

emo, bleak things aside for the time being. finally, i feel like myself again. just for today, i feel whatever i feel like feeling, do whatever i feel like doing, sit anywhere i like to sit, talk to people i feel like talking to (eudora, alvin and jingxiang esp.), and all these made me a very very very happy guy indeed. FOR TODAY ONLY.

yeah. simple as it might be. but i derive sweet pleasure out of it. its exceptionally heartening to know that at least there are some people who feels the same way as i do, and i really appreciate that alot.

eudora, thanks for letting me annoy you throughout the whole day.
alvin, thanks for giving me another outlet for release (to confide in).
and jingxiang, thanks for being sooooooooo patient and understanding to me when i am at my downs.

you guys seriously need a GOOD TREAT FROM ME as i feel really bad of abusing you people mentally and physically when i am grumpy and moody.

yeah.

detention was alright- not as boring as it seems. had a really productive 2 hours completing my assignments for the day and felt really good after that. i dont know, but detention in school seem to have made me a more disciplined person as a whole? HAHA! lameass. but i just felt that way at that point of time. never in my whole life did i actually sit down and do my assignments with no distractions at all. not until........

alvin smsed me asking me to "hang in there" for the "last 5 mins" to eight. hAHA! it was really funny btw, but thanks ah. =))

okay. i have to report to mdm tong for every assembly from now on. what a lousy school system is that? you say?

friday yet again- i am totally stupefied. how time actually flies- its already the 1ST OF FEB if you are still lost in time. haha!

alright then, dont know what to say anymore.

but i feel that i owe eudora, jingxiang and alvin a big big something- which i am still thinking about. HAHA!!!!!

shall see then.

2007-01-30T16:41:00.000+08:00

nope. didnt think so.

as miss chan was on MC, our class was therefore dismissed early (or isit because the very moment i heard from candy that miss chan was not in school, i immediately leave school?) but either way, i hurriedly went out cos i am meeting lp at starbucks to bitch plus mug. HAHA!

as usual, i was early. so i studied productively for 2 hours before she came. and in the midst of my study session, i ordered a cuppa caramel macchiato and a piece of warm chocolate cake. it was almost perfect for a kick start for my study session! woohoo. i should do this everyday, hopefully.

so this goes to show that yesterday's physical and conditioning training, which consists of 3 sets of 800m intervals below 3:15 , 5 sets of 4 pullups, 1 set of best-effort pullups, 2 sets of monkey bars, 4 sets of 10 incline pullups, 20 sets of a combi of 10-15s leg raise, 2 sets of 20 crunches had all gone down the drain.. which is quite a sad case. =(

anyway, i had another cup of signature hot choc when lp arrive. as the name suggest, SIGNATURE, and it was really very hot and thick!

<3 starbucks!

completed tutorials after tutorials and really had a heartful time bitching to my palsie. and kai got a job already; i feel happy for him. at last. HAHA!

after that my whole spine was aching like mad and i had to call it a day. lp went to mac for further mugging session while i went home.

we were talking about class politics. a lesson learnt- if one dont do well in tests or exams, dont blame it on classroom politics. it's just a mere excuse. but still.. one cannot deny that it can be a tedium to be alone in class with noone to talk to, noone to share your woes and happiness with..... while, you dont need to have 43745890893410 friends.. all you need is just 1 or even 2 "talkable" friends and that would do you fine. trust me. =)

dont even know how to tell them. you tell me. i think i'd better stick to my own personality and my own thinking. and yes, you call that culture? while, i beg to differ. or rather, i would say that this is more of a negative influence than a culture. sorry to say this but i just feel that its just soooooooooo pointless and redundant trying to keep this "culture and tradition" of yours alive. too bad, please, for gods sake.

i am not trying to say i hate this or i hate that, i loathe him or i loathe her. its just personality crash. i admit i had been giving you people chances of becoming a part of me but much to my dismay, you didnt. so i just dont feel the need to carry on; because its oh-so-tiring.

now, back to square one.

i am upset about how you people treated me for the past 11 months.

blame it on my high expectations- but still, no response.

from now on, you do whatever you like, you feel whatever you feel, you think whatever you feel like thinking and we call it a day.

so thats all folks.

-with my hands finally loosen grip of you-

smile widely.=)))))))))))

2007-01-26T18:02:00.000+08:00

and i got in.

woohoo~ amidst of the very bad day i had in school, something turned out well after that.what a blessing in disguise! =)

(the bad day includes the fact that i got caught for skipping assembly by jap guy and had my ez-link card confiscated; which i could only retreive it AFTER i'd explained to my ct. shhuucckks.)

and to make the matter worse, she wrote on the board, "skipping assembly to study when you WERE supposed to go for assembly. is this justifiable?" tsk! many gave comments after that; and i shant say about it. cos it makes my blood boils. anyway, thanks ah, guys.

hastily went down to G.O to collect my ez-link card when we came across james koh. now i know his plight. =) i shall be a good boy from now on.

my day was brightened up by the fact that i clocked approx 10 minutes for my time trial- AND THAT MEANS I CAN GO FOR BIATHLON! (the cut off time is 15 mins. what a close shave huh?) and i made it! -grins widely-

had a total of 30 laps after that. apart from trying to hit below 10 and splashing my way through the water, everything was relaxing. the whole pool was mine! (cos it was drizzling when i had my time trial.) HAHA! cool !

- and i'm alright, just a lil' angsty afterall -

i know there's no turning back, so life's just got to go on! admit it, people. we are drifting apart. and from one part of some lyric, "cause i dont feel the same way i once feel about you", i agree to a large extent.

why get so worried, sad, blah blah when one is being "outcasted" by the class? why try to conform to them when you know your character doesnt fit in to their clique? afterall its just yet another giving-in-and-makes-you-feel-good-but-you-actually-dont session! how come? i just dont know. =)

my thinking is, ultimately, the ones that will TRULY STAND BY YOU are your family members, your relatives, and if you are fortunate enough like me, my 2 pals (k and lp).

please think again, dudes. HAHA!

i am happy.

2007-01-25T21:15:00.000+08:00

i am going to lp's club to swim tmr; its a time trial by the way. better be good OR ESLE i will be disqualified for the biathlon. hAHA! feeling all jittery now cos i aint have any training for like... a month- and my speed sucks. how? you tell me? we shall see how it goes tmr.

i wanna get that striped cotton shirt with cotton details raoul shirt for my cny- damn classy please. and it can do miracle to your, uhm, not-so-perfect body shape. =)) but its expensive. tsk!!!

and i didnt go for any running and conditioning exercises today cos' i met up with alvin at coffeebean. we did some productive mugging (not mugging for me, i was DESPERATE TO HAVE MY TUTORIALS CLEARED.) and by the time we left for home, it was already sometime in the late evening. needless to say, there's still a pile of unattempted tutorials lying on my desk.

feeling somewhat DETACHED from the present situation. uhm. not so much of me wanting acceptance or belonging to a group of friends or whatsoever, or even worse, trying to seek attention from them. EEWW. but nvm, the story never change, just the faces and the names. dont even know why the sudden mood swing of mine.

(cos i know noone is with me.)

its so unbecoming of me to say this kind of thing. where'd all my cheerful nature gone to?

it just so sad thinking that i am soon gonna be "expired".

well, its okay.

parts and parcel of life what, ANYWAY.

-a smile, feigned-

2007-01-24T17:17:00.000+08:00

i was anticipating for the end of the school day for my CHEESEFRIES, and it was at that point of time when that someone who had planted a bombshell on me (which i think that someone had always been wanting to do it but didnt have the chance to do so), activated the BOMB. and it was just the starting of the day only, my dear.

it seems like hard work doesnt pay off, so directly. its so annoying!

i admit the fact that my results dropped like nobody's business. but please think back. i did not regret or whine so much about my results because i know i've put in my best effort and this is all i can do.

no results?
at least i tried.

have you?
NO?
then shut up and move on.

who are you to tell me that, "why you study sooo hard when compared to us and your results are like that of those who studied 2 days before hand?" ( grammar errors all over). lets see.. how much have you actually scored? are you satisfied? and you'd better if you said that to me. lousy stuckup.

am i senstive? am i taking that someone words too seriously? i dont know. i just feel like giving that someone two freaking tight slaps when that someone said that to me. its soo depressing alright? if you got it, flaunt it! if not, OUTTA MY WAY, please.

and everyone is so fake now. i dont know how to describe it but it just seems like something is amiss out of everything.

i feel so stranded, aimless (probably not that much of this).

but one thing that i am very sure of- THINKING OF OUTWITTING ME? DREAM ON!

IF YOU GOT WHAT IT TAKES, THEN BRING IT ON.

i am serious; you bunch of ^%^#%^$#!!@!~

screw it.

dang.

2007-01-23T18:32:00.000+08:00

due to OVERWHELMING hits to my blog- say.. 2 per day? HAHA- i've decided to update my blog, like FINALLY.

"hurray!!" you shout. (uhm.. specifically to alvin. =))

its been a tiring, gruelling, intense for the past one week or so. cos i've been slogging my ass off for chemistry block test yesterday (which i didnt perform up to my expectation though). its disappointing to a large extent.

now, imagine you work on your tys the moment you reach home, memorising, flipping through the already-crumpled notes, filling up the blank spaces of the tys, rummaging out some past year jc papers that my cousin gave it to me.. and so on... till clock strike 12? and the outcome of which; a mere pass.

what a sad life isnt it?

-double sigh-

and with all these hard work, it didnt, yeah, you've got me right, it didnt paid off as well as those who studied like.. a day before hand? anyway, i've done my best, LOR! hAHA-

coming back, i've got lots of tutorials that i've yet completed and its freaking-ly piling up on my table now. guess i'll have to burn another 1 tonne of midnight oil in order to catch up with the pace of the tutorial(s) again. one word to summarise- HECTIC!

-really, no time to brood; no time to cry for a breather.-

CNY is approaching and i dont even have the slightest idea of how to squeeze some of my time out to do my shopping. how? you tell me? anyway, i saw that adidas sneakers and sweater at pacific plaza and it looks oh-so-damn-cool! anyone to accompany me? -CRIES OUT!-

and i yearn to be like HIM (pic below- the future me.) for my prom this year. and with that, i will NOT be inferior when janson and alvin is around. (cos someone claim they are super cute. OMG. okayy =)) haha!!!!!

yeah, some random post.

as initiated by alvin.

2007-01-09T22:13:00.000+08:00

ma(2) nah(1) wu(3) bian(3). (aka bo bian.)

random- i am munching pineapples now and it tasted soo freaking sweet- unlike that of the one selling at some wet-market? damn sour? =/

ok, whatever.

had a so-called swimming session with alvin, jingxiang, chunyu and zengan at csc (bukit batok). it was quite nice though, uhm- meaning the scenery and the facilities. its sooooooo nostalgic when that place suddenly reminds me of that when i was a child, having no qualms about my future and pressures built up over the decade.

i sat on the swing and wondered- how nice would it be that we do not have to succumb to peer pressures, meeting deadlines, conforming to the society and whatever not? to put it in a simpler way, i want a simple but yet happy life.

yes, one's definition of "simple and happy life" might differ from another. but the whole point here is, why do we all have to brood and worry over about something(s) that is/are due like... anytime? say, studying for A levels? or even nearer, the chemistry common test (organic chem)?. i know its such a spoilspot of me to say this in the very midst of some serious fun but it just occured to me somehow.

if i want to go for a swim on a sunny day, WHY NOT? if i want a cup of caramel mocchiato, WHY NOT? i have to admit that it is these simple simple pleasures in life that always keeps my spirits up. it is only after those sweet indulgences that gives me the spur to perform a certain something and gives me the push of motivation to reach for my goals.

but time MIS-MANAGEMENT comes to play here. ugh, i hate this ugly fact that "time waits for no men". there's where the hokkien phrase "ma nah wu bian" aka "bo bian" is most suitably used in this context. and this will certainly and definitely LEAD to some disgusting chain effects which i will not mention here.

so, swimming anyone? starbucks-ing anyone? coffeebean-ing anyone?

think twice.

and you'll never know;

because the future is all in your hands.

ma nah wu bian -hokkien-? you tell me?

2007-01-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!

HAVE AN AWESOME YEAR AHEAD! =))

and if you guys want to have the video to yesterday's fireworks display, here's the link- http://203.116.91.105/esplanade/marinabaycountdown/countdown.asp

yes. it was ALMOST spectacular. but still, i love it!

yes. jan 1st-

may everything in 2007 be smooth-sailing for me.

2006-12-29T19:58:00.000+08:00

okok.

after getting inspiration(s) of "how to effectively start a catchy paragraph" through, by means of, my famous antic- bloghopping- i hope this one, this paragraph, DOES DO SOME EFFECT ON THIS POST. hAHA! =)

not forgetting that.....

NEW YEAR IS JUST AROUND THE CORNER- and that i presume everyone is going to partaye through the night(s) before the gruelling school year officially kickstart next wednesday, i am going to put up a nightrider guide to help you people to GET HOME SAFE AND SOUND during this festive season.

and before i shall declare the updates of my post of year 2006 a close, i shall wish all my fervent and sincere readers of this blog, dotty-planet.blogspot.com, and others who just happen to chance upon this blog,

A VERY HAPPY 2007! ('',)

and at the same time, giving you all the blessings you guys need next year...

bye and enjoy the rest of 2006!!!

signing off till next year,
-your intelligent author-
BOONKIAT'06.

2006-12-27T20:05:00.000+08:00

christmas trees. sinful delicacies. pressies.

i received my first and probably only two christmas cards, given my dire unpopularity. it's from my cousins in my entire family tree of maternal side. hAHA!

got a golden bookmark plus socks from anli, an expensive braun buffel wallet from jiahui and a chic organiser from jiaxin. it was uber cool! thanks alot. =)

not much rewards lately. but still, i can feel the love from them to me- its so-oh sincere and heartwarming. =))

*

okay, here it goes!

we exchanged a word or two, only after a year.

2006-12-22T20:53:00.000+08:00

oh well, christmas is round the corner BUT i aint feeling excited about it.

H O W C O M E ? (a really silly question indeed but i still want to question my doubt nonetheless =/)

everythings serious have come to an end for this year i supposed- except for gatherings with closed-ones lined up for the next few days. =) in fact, i cant wait to meet them up! (especially for my pressie). what a relieve, finally.

-for your information, my last week of the year is dedicated to accomodate to my needs and what i wanted to do for the year but didnt have the time to do it. 7 days minus xx days, hours and minutes. enough? i think so. =) -

alright, paradox here. didnt i just mentioned that i aint feeling excited for christmas? yea, you're right. no FEEL for christmas, just the FEEL for receiving the presents. anticipation you call it.

call me PRACTICAL then. hAHA.

.......................................
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okay. the emo "feel" that i've always feel (literally now) at the end of the year now dawns upon me.

i am waiting...

2006-12-21T21:11:00.000+08:00

okay. this song is very inspirational and nice!

and omg- this is one of the last few posts of the year! how time flies..

message to everyone after listening to this song- never too much for one.

figure out yourself. hAHA!

counting down to dec 31st- when my fireworks will lit the sky, bringing tears to everybodys eyes. (how well it sounds! hahaha!)

2006-12-20T21:55:00.000+08:00

OH FINALLY.

after days of patient waiting for this page to load, it finally paid off- at this very moment. HAHA.
yeah, sounds abit spastic but i've got lotsa things to blog about especially for this past few days.

(but i dont feel like typing it now after second thoughts though.... HAHA!)

and also, my beloved hot sun came out after hiding behind the clouds for 2.567 days. what a yay factor! went for a swim plus tanning session with my bud, laypeng. town after that, watched night in the museum at lido. a great grEAT GREAT show- 4/5 stars.

CALLING FOR KAISOON! WHERE ARE YOU?! (you always go missing WHEN we have plans. and you better dont back out next sunday i tell you. haha!)

ok- nothing more to blog about. thanks to the past few days.

time for some reflection and reminiscing of those good old days when we were at.......... some place. hHAA!

2006-12-15T13:08:00.000+08:00

its uber HOT in here.
i am sweating like nobodys business now.
WHY?
cos for the past few days, i've been living in uber cold and COOL regions on earth. =))

hot. fuckingly hot.

i am feeling nostalgic.
i dont quite miss my hotel in guangzhou (prolly due to the hard hARD HARD bed but otherwise it would be fine) but i do definitely miss that shopping paradise, hongkong.

i want my brown adidas sweaters (selling for like SDG$20?) and that puma hand grip (SDG$70). cheap asswipes!
its super-dupa nice! - but i regretted not buying it. hmph.

i miss hongxing's seaview lunch by the sea.
i miss the night river cruise by zhujiang river (the laser show was breathtaking. SP, YOU'RE OUT!)
i miss that roasted goose and egg tarts which are hot and crispy in hongkong.
i miss hongkongs MAFIAS, MERCS AND ROLLS-ROYCE. HAHA
ohhhhhh.

there're still a gozillion things that i do MISS for that trip to guangzhou and hongkong.

=( BUT THE ONE THING I DO NOT MISS WAS THE LONG DISTANCE WALK AND THE MTR RIDE TO VARIOUS PLACES. like wth.

overall, 3 stars out of 5. =)

shopping paradise uh?
not for me- for i only got 8 items out from this trip. when compared to my siblings- they owed BOXES, BIG HEAVY BOXES.

p.s- pics later.

2006-12-07T14:50:00.000+08:00

the design of the quiz is definitely COOL! it wont kill just to try it. =))

and andrea's birthday party rockED yesterday!

although it was some gaming cum dinner cum chatting session, we'd enjoyed each and everyones presence- yeah, undeniably, secondary school friends are still the better ones. they are sooooo much understanding and we are comfortable upon seeing each other ever since like.............................................
1 year ago?

hAHA!

i know what to do.

keep this THANG going on~

ANDREA IS 17 !!

2006-12-04T19:11:00.000+08:00

Bad Day Sung By Spongebob

oh man, this clip is nice! i'll give it 5 bites.

2006-11-29T21:28:00.000+08:00

this is sheer madness!

who says asians shy away from the spotlight? please feel proud that at least, there are some representativies of asians in HOLLYWOOD.. =) grins

from lef to right; my ex gf (lucy liu), my gf (zhang ziyi), my date (gong li) and lastly, my eye candy (maggie Q)

oh my god. sizzling HOT!

they are undeniably

HOT!
SEXY!
IRRESISTABLE!
SOPHISTICATED!
FAMOUS!
PROFILIC!
SUCCESSFUL!
DEMURE!
SHARP!
PRETTY!
RICH?!?!
hAHA!

okay, they manage to look abit "kawaii" (omgomg. i hate using this type of language. but duh!).

back to serious stuffs. i went back to school for a morning run with sinyee. that was a very refreshing run should i say. then we waited for like FOREVER for lisin to come so that we can get our revision started but she only arrived 124789237341578943 hours later. hAHA!

sinyee and me did math while that poor lady did 1/8 of her gp hols package. poor thang! as usual, we bitched like noone's business and that pathetic lady(lisin again) eye candied VICTOR. sinyee and me was like whoring all over and i asked victor to join us for our study session, which he did! lisin blushed.

after of which, during the course of our study session, lisin kept INTERUPTING US with her VERY PROFOUND ENGLISH VOCABS. and we'd crank our heads to think for some words in replacement for her. to say, victor did the most work for LISIN.

cos' victor was reading some chinese book by "liu(2) yong(1)" or something like that, lisin PRAISED HIM FOR HIS VAST READING as she claimed that "liu yong's" books are of good recommendations.

BUT BUT, have you heard of an author named "liu(2) yong(1)" before? NO? what she wanted to mean was "jing(1) yong(2)" but not "liu(2) yong(1)". and apparently, all of us starting laughing as lisin acted DARN CONFIDENT WHEN SHE SAID THAT AUTHOR'S NAME ( the wrong one though.) hahahah!

then i sought help from her in apgp as my feel for that topic isnt there. we crapped, but also, did some productive work. both sinyee and lisin are good working partners, truthfully.

i am so glad that such friends do exist. as in.. we still keep in touch though we're on seperate ways. =) smiles. and sinyee's advice was of very good use when come j2.

yes! stay focused and determined!- i am going to SHINE!

till then,

gimme zhang ziyi.

loves.

2006-11-27T12:38:00.001+08:00

i am definitely hopeful now.

been bloghopping ever since 12 noon and within this SHORT SHORT SHORT time span of like 30 mins? i am....

MOTIVATED.
INSPIRED.
HOPEFUL.
EAGER.
I-DONT-KNOW-HOW-TO-DESCRIBE-KINDA-FEELINGS.

why?!

everyone's blog i've visited is very well to do- med faculty, dentistry, banking and finance, accounting, business, double degree in whatever not..... blah blah.

hAHAHA!

THIS IS THE JOY OF BLOGHOPPING.

uhm. does being inspired counts? =))

2006-11-26T14:10:00.000+08:00

GAH

im really sorry that every time i blog its about

OH i have SO MUCH to study and IM DEAD and i hate PHYSICS and HOLS ASSIGNMENTS and goodness knows.

but thats how im perpetually feeling.

6 MORE TO GO; 3 DAYS WILL PASS ME BY- COME DECEMBER THE PARTY STARTS!

=D

2006-11-20T11:59:00.000+08:00

I can't talk, I've got the wrong way.

i miss my work shadowing days- HQ Link, my palsies for the past 3 days; yunjun, carinne, alice, clement, shih han, zhuqin and huimin. they've been great bitching pals for that 3 days and yes! promised to keep in touch, will you?! hAHA! and all the staffs round there, esp to ms margaret li, who showed us the way and guided us when we are faced with difficulties, though few. =))

well, everything has an end. i am glad that at least i get to know that there are indeed nice people around you so that you wont feel that you are a social misfit of sort.

everyone struggles against despair, but it always wins in the end. it has to. its the thing that lets us say goodbye.

i will definitely cherish the times we have had together, a good time undeniably.

a chapter closed....

2006-11-13T20:20:00.000+08:00

and i vowed not to be that way. i guess sometimes, no matter how hard i try to swim against the current of doubt, i get swept back in it.......

emo songs always brings back memories for me. after listening to "irreplacable" by beyonce, "what a wonderful world" by louis armstrong, "bad day" and "jimmy gets high" by daniel powter..................... i became reflective.

and im feeling .. a certain je ne sais quoi. I feel literally DROWNED in work, because I'm not caught up with certain tracks yet and I have homework and I still need to REVISE the older topics. But yet I really don't feel like doing anything now, except lie on my bed and daydream.

Is 11 months too short a period to be feeling such nostalgia? I can't help it though. I remember those mugging sessions, the shopping sprees, the climbing sessions-one we serendipitously landed ourselves into; one we fortunately scraped through twice and got ourselves freed from school activities. I remember all the heated discussions on a certain someone, all the bitchings, all the focused practices on tys, all the adrenaline (now epinephrine - adrenaline is just not medical enough) flowing as we scraped promos.

And I also remember the sec 4 chalet, we ourselves were heading towards the beach to catch the sunrise; and we had to pass though a very very dark and eerie and deserted part of the route to the beach as a short cut. the girls were probably feeling terrified that we were going to bring them to some forsaken place to rape and murder and plunder them. hAHA! i think i could almost smell their relief ( and possible surprise) when we emerged into some lampposts and the sea. we intended to play some games there as it was to keep ourselves warm from the chilly winds or mingle around reminiscing how we got through the ordeal and survived under the terrible maths lessons for two years. we compiled to the latter.

I also remember.. someone. I think it was mentioned to X, but he probably forgot. Hmmm.

While I would like to continue waxing nostalgic at some of my favourite holiday memories.. I should stop. Although it's hard to forget those good old memories that you had, the saying that goes "lets keep in touch even if we are on different ways..", the ones that once left some traces at some point of our lives... all these, is whole lot of histories.

i never expected myself to find myself teetering on the precipice of the balance between misery and happiness. Ok, mis-description there, since with my current life i am just plain Happy. but with every Happiness-inundated life comes tinted edges of worry, doubt and forlorn crap, which I can only describe as Happy Misery. Misery that is constantly present, that always knaws a little at your chordae tendinae; although youre feeling the most carefree and joyful some part of you knows and itches and craves and knows and wrenches and cries and feels helpless and totallywtf.

i sound so angsty and emo - not at all how i am most of the time. im mr sunshine, mr random. okay, guess what - all that is a freaking farce, a hideous oversight of everyone. ya ? so get it straight, im manic, im scared, and im one big fat cross.

irreplacable.

2006-11-12T19:17:00.000+08:00

oh man.

today was a nice, sunny sunday morning to start with- with the lush greenery, pals of all pals meeting together, and the SINGAPORE-JOHOR 2ND LINK BRIDGE RUN!

sad to say, out of the 3 of us- zhisheng,alvin and me- i ran the last amongst them. but still, i clocked 49 mins for 10 freaking km and emerged the top 50 for my category, BOYS.

and during the course of the run, it have me in positions where my limbs - crazy, lazy, weak, but they're mine and i love them no matter what - are at stake. nearly got into a cramp upon the finishing line and i got a terrible stomachache after that.hAHA; not to mention, zhisheng got that too!

headed to IMM for a very tiring lunch considering the fact that we had to climb over that barrier of sort in the middle of the road. GRUELLING.

alvin had 2 rounds for lunch. what a stomach he has! =D

went home and slept for 4 hours, but still, quite drowsy though.

anyway, the medal for the run; i am glad enough.

2006-11-10T10:08:00.000+08:00

in another 4 hours; i will be speaking to a panel of judges and audiences... hAHA! i am getting all jittery and jumpy now.

alright folks. all the best in your OP later on!

->esp to 06s15 and those who are taking it today.

good luck! =))

2006-11-08T14:44:00.000+08:00

phew. i realise i dont realise how busy my days are until i stop having stuff to do and get to sit down and type things up.

hehe. janson tagged me.

work-wise i have inadvertently stumbled into my pw group, which is good, and scary because you realise how much you don't know that other people do (or isit the other way round? hHAHA). and! i really want to get properly involved with them. which is really frustrating. because finally something motivates me enough to pluck up the courage to actually get involved and the project is... non-existent.

monday we were supposed to be the adultest we've ever been and i never felt more like a kid. - the OP trial.

apart from the script stuff - apart from everything else, it's shit! i was reading it over after i sent it off and i was so freaking embarrassed. argh i never want to write again. or rather i had the most amusing hour. but it's so gossipy. oh i shouldnt blog about it but i want to.

i shall not.

birthday last sat was "alright", had to thank a few of them who actually made an effort in sending their regards (be it late or not. hAHA!) they are:

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-laypeng (the normal laksa,prata,the super expensive ice lemon tea, the ice cream and the bitching session)

-engkien (making me excited way before ushering in my 17th birthday and sending me lots of youtube.com videos. thanks anyway.)

-jessica (counting down to my birthday with me and said "happy birthday, SHUWEI!" okay, like wth! hahaha. with the help from the time applet though, the prompt regard.)

-yihong,harris,vivian,boonchoon,yimmie (the ex-4/9's being forced to say happy birthday to me- =)) smiles!)

-thungliang ( i was super shocked that he'd remember my b'dae, okay? wheres that stupid bernard? i shall kill him the next time round we meet up. 06s23b rocks anyway.)

-anli (my hao jie mei. gone were those dark dark days. thanks for those long and bitchy telephone calls!)

-kaisoon (undeniably, the super-duper smartie pants and the ultimate clubber. - msged me at around 2 am?)

-tracy (the suntan, alvineteo rivalry, boonkiat fan club =))) )

-fadillah (my lesbian partner. whr's my gay partner? another stupid leon- okay. meet up as A CLASS PLEASE.)

-my family members (the crystalling.. the haagendazsing.. the everything..)

-khairyn (refer to thungliangs and fadillahs- hahahah! same msg. MEET UP!)

-boonchoon and jinda (the drama mama and super big mouth-er. haha!refer to ex-4/9s caption)

-jingxiang (the dylexic patient of mine.)

- JANICE!!!!!! (okay. no big deal. she's my palsie.)

-jieying (refer to ex-4/9s )

-janson (with a handshake)
.............................................................................................

and the list goes on.

okay. i am going to get my act together and do stuff. be proactive!

2006-11-04T00:13:00.000+08:00

happy pippo cartone

my birthday present from ENGKIEN. okay. thks anyway.hahaha!!

2006-11-03T23:45:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday

2006-11-03T23:44:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO THE HANDSOME KING!

I LOVE ME!

2006-11-03T23:33:00.000+08:00

okay. 30 more mins to go.

wish me an early happy 17th birthday first!!

alright, my 16 year old been prettaye sweet and nice. thanks to all the people out there. who includes you, you and you!

love you loads. <3<3

till then, counting down and i like the way i am feeling now!!

2006-11-02T11:03:00.000+08:00

i know i shouldnt do this but....... HAHAHA!

2 more minutes and i got to go mug my ass off for chinese tmr. damn annoying and distracting. considering the fact that today's weather is sunny and its a holiday; could have used today to go for a nice swimming session, but NO.

like wwwhhhhaaaattt ttthhheeee hheelllll!

okay. its 11am now. good morning folks-

see you guys tomorrow-

oh yeah, dont forget your IC, Chinese Dictionary and Entry Proof !

study hard and you can finally kiss goodbye to chinese subj for the rest of your life. hang in there! though i think everyone's in hols mood. hAHA! =)))

2006-11-01T18:04:00.000+08:00

Hi5 Team Song

remember that we are a TEAM! specially dedicated to those who are in my pw TEAM. haha! =))) happy november!

2006-11-01T09:50:00.000+08:00

omgod- Fakeit! suntan lotion from the body shop is FUNNALY OUT AGAIN! omgomgomgomg. i'd better rush down to grab one or two so that i wont have to freakingly go for a useless tanning session by the bukit batok swimming pool every now and then (not even getting the slightest hint of me tanned, dont mention sunburn).

me wants!!!

but its gonna be hard to explain to everyone (especially parents) how i got the perfect tan in like one day. so much for faking everybody hurh. But nontheless.*drools*

i could go to the beach moreeeee.

A's chinese this friday. like what a spoilspot.

The whole worlds a grumpy frumpy lumpy dump :(

which is pissing me off too. i shall
>
>
eat chocolate.

2006-10-28T14:53:00.000+08:00

I Don't like your tone!

2006-10-28T13:29:00.000+08:00

more than half of slacking week's over but it seems like there isnt any substantial progress for the project. no confirmed script for me, or whoever in my group. dont even mention rehearsals. havent confirmed the surveys for stats, havent written script for my part. and i just found out that OP trials are over, which is mainly the reason why i am pissed with my group and i because i havent been a good leader and secondly, they dont even know whats our topic.

oh well, its a disaster. i dont know why i still have the time to sit down here blogging while every other groups are soo busy with their project. tried to find a good goddamn reason to ask them to stay back to school next monday for a goddamn preparation of OP but i think they will not conform to this. haha. dont even have a chance to do some work and console myself because we are seriously lagging behind for the project. but you know what? its a project. if i die, at least we all die together. heh heh. maybe one thing that i did that can be considered quite significant is my chinese tutorials. hAHA. can get to show off i did some work cos they havent done it yet. and i am so proud of our stereotype. someone actually commented that we've got an interesting outline and unique topic. HAHA (smug grins)

it was zengan's birthday yesterday and our class celebrated it for him. fish and co's glass house was terribly dim that i had to whine to eudora to help me ask them to brighten up the lights. which she didnt do so as it was meant to be like this. the ambience as they deemed. haha. cocktails after cocktails, pubs after pubs, and eventually, i was quite grumpy and displeased as i am very tired after all that long searching for a decent good pub. if only............ haha! shant say anymore things.

alright then, i need to EDIT, no, to put it in a nicer way, REWRITE, the whole script for gabriel. omfg. i dont know what is he up to as he always ticked me off at the very inappropriate timings; say, now? i am fuming mad at him for what he had written on his part for his presentation. anyway, just based on his capabilities, the script he had written was good enough (like fucking real). maybe i shouldnt have high hopes for him in the very first place. sry gab, its my fault.

i am speechless..

let this not affect my planning for my birthday next week.

smile, always =)))))

2006-10-26T21:33:00.000+08:00

i spent all my waking hours youtubing it's such an addiction that's so bad for my eyes. i'm not even watching porn anymore. anyway, miss lin li! i want to kill my classmates, or rather, schoolmates, for being under her for physics tutorial. argh, i am so freakingly jealous when they speak to me about how oh-so-perfect she is when she is teaching in their class. and i think my cousin knows her (since they are from the same batch during their rivervalley and hwachong school years). omg- should ask him about that when i see him the next time. damned-

while, i tried to convince my asswipe friends that james koh is not bad too; but much to my disdain, they still chose linli over james koh. actually, i choose linli over james koh too-- seriously, whatever happened to trust in yer fellow man, huh. no one trusts me these days. it sucks.

and the first thing you guys do are to bang the table and giving the smug-face and say i look like Dumbass, my heart broke, and believe you me, i don't really need to be assured that love is just a four-letter word. hAHA =))

anyhow, due to my stiff and pain neck, i decided to go back home to have a good afternoon nap. and how good can it be? it rained and the nice cooling weather just lure me into my neverland. okay, crapbag.

there will be a class gathering tmr. and i hope that i wont be waiting for them like dead leaves off the entrance of the shopping mall, the same entrance onto which the same damned trees shed their same damned leaves every damned time the fucking wind blows. =))

heh heh.

goodday; today.

2006-10-25T20:17:00.000+08:00

i cant wait till dec to come! there is a list of reasons why i love december so much (but i aint going to type it here as it will be a bore to you, i reckon').

random paragraph (can choose not to read it though.)
okay, here it goes. "laypeng in the sky with diamonds." it rhymes what. anyway, eh stupid laypeng, i cant stand your jokes can!?!? hHAHA! what ntuc=auntie lucy and KFC=kuo.fu.cheng.. like wth! HAHA! okay- shall meet you next sat (my b'day) and you will definitely get a shit out of me. i swear. and please give me a pleasant surprise by drawing 17 big and colourful froggies just like what you did for me last year. i am not very demanding, am i? HAHAHAHA! and you'd better watch out. while, i've lots of plan during december which includes that of watching a play. i dont care i want to watch "jack and the beanSPROUT" and lets go for a picnic on NYE! omg. damn. december is soo fun. and dont forget our mugging sessions too.

and kaisoon. you'd better lend me your IC so that i can join you for post prom party. but in the meantime, ACE YOUR A LVL first. and we (including that lame-ass laypeng) will have a hell load of time together. ok. shall stop here for the random para. oh yea- kaisoon and laypeng are my besties. (okay, abit childish)

ok back to serious stuffs. today was yet another slacking day. shant bother to blog anymore cos we did those usual stuffs when teachers arent around for tutorials. we played guess-the-stupid-number, tap-tap, bigfishsmallfish, 7up and laugh till nobodys business. i am starting to like this class. but isnt it abit TOO LATE? hmm.

counting down for my fav day.. dec 31st.

2006-10-24T14:58:00.000+08:00

whats the date today?

okay, the 24th.

utter nonsense. i got back my promos results and it was crapbag; while at least to me, it is.

H2 subjs
Chemistry- A 72%
Maths - A 75%
Physics - D 54%

H1 subjs
Chinese - A 70%
Econs - B 62%
GP - E 49%

while, its not the final results. will just have to wait till next monday.

hAHAHA! i am off to sulk now.

shut up and move on.

2006-09-22T20:24:00.000+08:00

Have You Ever...

been hurt so bad it feels like dying.

No, really. This is what it must feel like to go. And actually, it is rather pleasant.

Its more like a release. The final 'fuck-it'. A complete and utter surrender to a higher power outside your control. Like drowning in a river. You struggle at first. But then, people say there is a moment of euphoria as your lungs learn how to breathe water instead of spit air. You have reverted to mans pre-evolutionary state and ironically, you feel more alive than you have ever felt in your entire sorry land-locked lifetime.

You float. Then you sink into oblivion. And the best part of the transition is the peace. Nothing can touch it or take it from you- it is six feet below. Profound. Exquisite. Deep. It consumes you. And you are left with nothing but the metaphysical conviction that everything in this topsy-turvy world is now as it should be.Finally, you have done something right.

You always knew it was coming. Death and taxes, as they say. The only thing you could never pinpoint was how or when. All you knew was that it would be too soon.

Dont believe what anyone tells you. Nobody ever really wants to go. Even the most reckless maniac with a death-wish wants to live- even if it is by the skin of her teeth. She may flirt with her mortality but ultimately all she wants is to be pulled back from the brink. To live another five minutes. To scrape by.

You wait. A year flies by- the best year of your life. Nothing happens. You grow careless. You begin to make modest little plans and dream modest little dreams, you have a little celebration to congraulate yourself on defying the odds. But in reality, all you are doing is looking forward to a future that isnt yours and committing yourself to a person that can never fully reciprocate.

You fool.

Yet, you continue to laugh in the face of your own destruction. You court it. You jeer at it. And when it doesnt come, you begin to trust in the myth of your own invincibility. You believe your own lies.

You forget you are on borrowed time.

And you are in such a mood when the knife is casually drawn from you, so swiftly that you lose your breath and immediately start to fall. You feel like you should resist or retaliate, do what all women do and cry even, but there is no point. The deed is already done. It is your time to go, not with a bang, but with a forced smile and a whimper.

The house always wins.

You turn to face your killer. Her features swim into view and somehow you think you have seen that face before. Your tongue moves out of its own accord and it is your voice you recognise being discharged from your throat. Congratulations, youre a muppet on your own show. If life wasnt ebbing away from you, you would find it terribly amusing.

'That...hurts me,' you mutter softly, resignedly, to no one in particular. It is all a bit of an anti-climax.

After all, the culprit is no evil priestess. She is your best friend, your confidante, your protector- against whom you are utterly defenceless. She comes bearing good intentions and takes you at your least aware- when you are sitting around tittering over something superficial, feeling reasonably content with life.

A moment which for her will just be another moment.

But for you, will be an eternity.

this is nice. and i ripped it off someone esles blog and i think it is very prevalent to our life right now.

hang in there and i know you guys can do it.

do study hard for the promos. dont disappoint yourself.

all the best, to all taking promos next week =))

2006-09-21T22:53:00.000+08:00

Because i am jealous of how everyone has been HAPPILY and HARDWORKING-LY whinging and binging and staying up late to mug for the promos, and since i am not YET capable of MUGGING through the night, let me whinge here about one very unpleasant thing that happened to me now.

i skipped gp and pe today. i felt a pang of guilt in me as in firstly, i am the gp rep (supposedly to be the so-called "rolemodel" for gp subj, but i aint.). yea anyway, my gp is halfway down the drain (if you guys had known me better) and i actually FOREGO gp lesson for slacking session. wth. promos is like 2 more days and i am still procrastinating like nobody's business and all i know in the end is to whine and whine and whine. okay, apart from that, i had to summon all those who went for the lesson to coverup for me and i think on their part, they will be in a very bad position. furthermore, THE TEACHER ACTUALLY THOUGHT WHAT THEY SAID WAS TRUE. i felt really really really bad after hearing this from my friends. argh.

i am depressed.

someone, help me.

study.

2006-09-20T21:18:00.000+08:00

shut up and move on.

argh stiff neck and way too little sleep! i'm all geared up for mugging and at some point of time, i really enjoyed those sessions. BUT MOST OF THE TIME, NO.

i don't really know what i'm doing! i just know i can't stop chemistry again and lose it all, and if i'm going to do physics properly i might as well start now and complete my promos neatly before j2. hah. i didn't talk to my friends either and i can't think of a reason why- this is so crazy. but am happy that i got my A in physics and chem tests, even if it is a huge-ass lecture tests in which i'll wallflower away. i know wallflower isn't a verb, shut up.

yeah yeah yeah.

off to my mugging session now.

definitely definite.

2006-09-02T16:32:00.000+08:00

already, someone commented that "clubbing is meant for those rich boring people". to make things worse, yesterday's krunk market was bad initially. we waited for 4 dull hours just for the party to kick start. and by the time the party started at like 1130 pm, all the party-goers were half dead, prolly due to the long waiting for the arrival of the EMPRESS.

well, EMPRESS, or the word suggest, one would have look up on her as she possess power in the society or whatever you say. BUT!!!! it just so happen that the EMPRESS came dressed in somewhat a gregory-like costume and was limping into the party garden. what a sight!- i was intimidated and grossed by it alright?

anyway, i wasnt that HIGH when i was in the dance pool. i saw mainly two groups of people, one group- my primary school friends, secondly, my jc schoolmates from neighbouring classes. WTF. i was damn awkward alright? hAHA. and yeah, the fashion parade sucks. YOU CALL THAT HOT BODS? if you call that hot and shouted YAY when they sa-shayed down the runway yesterday, you are of NO-TASTE. woot-the-fuck. but there's this girl who resembles christine khoo back then in my sec sch. prettaye! =))

alright, the songs played yesterday were recycled and it make me bored. NEXT SOMG PLEASE. but i love the lightings and the ambience- suitable for a birthday bash but not for what rave party or whatever.

no pulsating hot bodies people- so no regrets if you missed this party.

YUCKS.

2.5 stars out of 5.

a pass as i was always a whore for the whole clubbing thing.

2006-08-31T19:50:00.000+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!

to all teachers in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD.

teachers day celebration at pjc was OKAY. it was dull alright? the emcees were like living in a world of their own, simply not livening up the atmosphere and ranting on and on like no ones business. TSK. BOO! luckily the good thing is, we dont have to dance that retarded SOS aces day dance. OMG. got to thank my stars for that.

met mingfen at the busstop to get the krunk tics tmr. its freezing cold at the busstop whlist waiting for her. then, i saw suzanne walking pass me. ZOMG. it warmed my heart. mingfen came shortly after that, she sent chills unto me once more. HAHAHHAH! ssry mingfen! =))

went back to ccks. so disappointing can. all the teachers that taught us went back home early. guessed they need a good rest. so we didnt blame them. anyway, we had fun.

point form :
-went back to school
-bitched like mad
-screamed and shouted like no ones business
-zhi sheng flicking nips (i was victimised)
-jjc mass yoga
-big fish small fish
-andrea' s sexyback, raj 1st,2nd poley crutch, haikal's hips-dont-lie and finally, lisin's run-3-scream-like-mad race.
-cam-whored and whored and whored and whored
-bye peeps
-went to harris's villa
-drenched like mad under my pathetic brolly with haikal (went to the wrong hse too)
-played with the damn big medicine ball
-cam whored with haikal again
-harris's psp went flat
-alex talentime (guitar singing a love number)
-himboed and bitched with my dear haikal
-gyming
-bubble tea
-home sweet home

i miss my class back then in secondary school. i miss those days.

you guys looked worn out just now. bet you've fun. studies aside for today and let us get into some serious fun.

omg. harris ask me to organise a bbq party. i think i going to set the date on mid-autumn festival wherby everyone is free (no promos, post exams already). i miss 4/9 lah. you tooties!!!

will post pictures up later when yiwen and haikal comes online later.

I LOVE YOU, 4/9 (05)

=)

2006-08-29T21:54:00.000+08:00

Rome 2006 Golden League 400 Meter with Jeremy Wariner

i want to be jeremy wariner. =)))

2006-08-29T21:07:00.000+08:00

chem spa today was GOOD. and i am satisfied with what i have done for my practical; albeit i think there's something amiss somewhere. well, this practical was MUCH MORE better than the previous physics spa, which i screwed up badly.

you lost my train of thoughts. SHAT. hAHA.

oh yeah, i passed my gp essay. got an E though. nothing fantastic about it but still, its a BIG BIG ACHIEVEMENT for me. claps please. and i completed READING the whole of (24 aug issue) eight days glossy. i have to admit the fact that eight days glossy is much much more interesting than TIMES mag for goodness sake. i simply cannot resist that of celebrities gossips and those bimbos/himbos/biatch/sluts/bastardo....reviews and features they have. OMGOMG.

okay, my post is drifting away.

i am going to read the aug 31 issue of eight days glossy now!

jealous? (aiyah, no big deal can?- unless you have oct 30 issue. hAHA)

bye.

2006-08-27T17:05:00.000+08:00

safra run today was alright. despite the fact that there are some inconsiderate ARMY guys strolling in one big bunch blocking in the way that of serious runners, like me. hAHA! not only that, the road was so squeezy that i had to swerve in and out and in and out just to get a "non-blockage" pathway. in addition, those ARMY guys are like engaging in some raunchy talk amongst them. eeee... hye, you didnt sign up for SINGAPORE BIG WALK. please, for goodness sake.

while, zhiqin,zhisheng and me did enjoy ourselves anyway. had 5 full cups of milo after that, thank you ah, zhisheng. hAHA. we are GOING FOR THE STANDARD CHARTERED MARATHON!

zhisheng, i hope you are fine now. your eyes. haha. see you on thurs!

and pw sucks. fancy doing project all by yourself and you get nothing in return? oh freaking hell i tell you. they are all freeriders- and i am so disgusted by it. ok, albeit candy does some work for me (ahem, thats good enough. at least she has some initiative.) but what about the others? lazing around and procrastinate like there're still ALOT of TOMORROWS to spare.

HELLO! WAKE UP PLEASE. do you know when is this written report due? its last friday for god's sake. and if you guys dont think this is of any importance to you, do think again. who did the GPP? you? who seriously crank up their brains to churn out the survey questions? you? who was the one who says 'i will do it for you'? you? i am getting pissed with you you and you. you people simply have no sense of urgency at all and all you know is to FREE-RIDE all the way. pardon my language for now.

the reason of blogging down instead of telling you straight in the face is because i dont want to hurt your feelings. i know you will say that it'll be better to be frank face to face. but do reconsider that again. when i am frank with you face to face, you will say i am very demanding and you will bitch about me behind my back subsequently. similarly for the case of blogging it down. i really really dont know what forms of communication i should use pertaining to this. the situation is getting from bad to worse and i am not over-reacting.

for all you know, i might be the next "bad rotten apple" in other people minds simply because all i know is to bitch.

do you think so?

i am afraid i have to say "yes".

EEEEEEeee.. sore loser.

2006-08-24T22:01:00.000+08:00

my heart is thumping against my chest like MAD. and goodness-know-when i might get a heart attack and die. omg, i seriously dont want to be expelled from that stupid act of mine. okay, not stupid, but rather, a hasty act of mine. i totally regret it now.

BUT ITS TOO LATE!

albeit i found this incident quite exhilarating, but bUT BUT! the price i MIGHT pay is going to be huge. take for example, if i were to be expelled, this means that my future is gone for sure. not only that, it will lead to a hell load of chained events to FALL UPON me. i seriously dont want this to happen. i've a good future. i want to lead a good life. i want to.. i want to.. i want to..........................

BUT I DONT WANT TO BE EXPELLED.

okay, it might sound abit exaggerated to be acting so sober and tensed up. you must really spare some thought for me. this is my first attempt of truancy in my whole life and the price i am going to pay for it is DAMN huge alright?

albeit i confessed to my parents about my wrongdoing and they dont seem to be bothered; told my cousins and best friends and they said its ok, nothing will happen, but i just have this guilt in me. OH-FUCK. ops, sry to be so vulgar. but i am afraid, afriad that things will go wrong tomorrow. and the worse thing is, i aint prepared for it.

oh dear, i never have been so panicky,tensed,petrified,pistified blah blah before ever in my whole life. not even in the major exams. while, the panic factor isnt as great during major exams as compared to this. WTH. WTS (its what-the-shit if you are oblivious to it).

i swear, i will turn over a new leaf and be a goody-two-shoes from now on.

and i'd better.

mark my word for it.

2006-08-24T00:05:00.000+08:00

“Are we going to get caught? Are we going down? OMG. I am afraid that we’ll be caught alright?” I questioned.

“Aiyah, just go ahead lah. We are not going to be the “ONLY-ONES” doing it. Just go CAN?” jing xiang snapped.

We went down the steep slope, hands gripping on firmly to the green fence leading us down to the bottom of the slope. We reached there facing no difficulties. The metal grill of the drain shimmered, as we walked to very place whereby we planned to escape.

Upon reaching there, we shrieked in disgust; as we didn’t expect that the fence was “thateasy” to be overcome. Then, engkien starts the ball rolling. He jumped up effortlessly and *thud* off he goes. He was finally out of the school compound. Tunkuang was next. He sustained a mild scratch in his palm but still, managed to get through the fence. Jingxiang, on the contrary, wasn’t as lucky as the both of them. He didn’t manage to get through the fence initially but after umpteen times of trying, he finally got through (tearing part of his uniform and scratched his palm). While, needless to say, I got through as well.

To sum up, I DECLARE our plan of escaping from the school’s sports day a SUCCESS! Woo.. this was my first time doing this kind of “truancy” thing and I was intimidated. Wild thoughts weaved in and out of my mind thinking that I will be caught and be expelled from the school. Argh. But rest assure. Many of my classmates used the same escape route and yes, they managed to get out of school without being caught as well.

FOR THE TIME BEING, THOUGH.

The adrenaline rush was ALMOST fantastic and I harbored this feeling of iwanttodothisagain!!! HAHA

Went to a birthday bash which was FULFILLING. Should blog in point form(I am too lazy to type)
-suntec
-marche
-stingray+rosti+chickensausage+bimbodrink+stirfriedvege+doryfishpasta+thepopiahlikedblackpepperchicken+squid+……………..
-icecreamcake ( we ate like pigs- 3 person to a big cake. Fook!)
-songsdedication
-fountainofwealth
-camwhored
-blahblahblah

Oh yeah. I had my tarot card readings too. Well, I really need to PRIORITISE and I appreciate that. Seriously. I will definitely heed your advice. And and, jiahui gave me two free entry to MOS tickets. Please pray hard that they will allow me in this time. OMGOMGOMG.

I seriously need to thank JIAHUI AND XIN FOR MAKING MY DAY. Although we bitched a lot, you guys are still the closest in my heart. YAY!

Happy birthday to jiahui once again…

Expel? DEFINITELY NOT.

2006-08-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

where's my source of motivation?!

i wish i had the capability to do well in physics- the concepts, the formulae, the everything. i sorely lack in this area of intuition which everyone else seems to have.

i wish i had the power of perception to decipher this from that, instead of wondering if i was crazy or petty to come to conclusions which may or may not be true.

i wish i could just get out of this turmoil and live life as it is, previously.

i wish....

kai and jh a very happy birthday!

happybirthdaytoyou
happybirhtdaytoyou
happybirthdaytobothofyou
happybirhtdaytoyou!